duckyfuzz

Ok so, some things have changed, Mainly, I'm free of the job that was bringing me down so much and I'm finally starting to build myself back into the person I'm supposed to be. I'm managing to keep going to the gym for my personal training sessions, so I'm starting to get back in shape...oh, and I'm booked up to fly to Canada for at...
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I'm feeling positive and negative at the same time these days. I can see a bright, if uncertain future ahead, and I can't wait to get there but I'm constantly worrying that something is going to screw it all up for me.

I'm setting my sights on Canada now and will be applying for an International Experience Canada visa next year to hopefully get over...
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Well, I went to the gym today.

Hated it of course, but you know, one step at a time...

So, I'm coming to conclusions about how to deal with my anger towards my place of work and even came up with a wonderful analogy.

The bullshit, lies, hypocrisy, patronisation at work is like a steam roller. Up to now, I've been doing my very best to stop it, by standing in front of it and pushing back. Obviously this is not working. The only...
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How do you deal with anger? How do you swallow your pride and keep your eyes on the prize, as they say?

I put a lot of thought into somehow wording this so it wouldn't just sound like a whine, but I gave up because it basically is a whine.

My situation is feeling rather shit right now. It's shit, but not hopeless - there...
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I've been thinking about starting a youtube channel lately and posting videos etc. for a while now, and the desire to do this has recently been reignited.

This whole SOPA thing, I confess, has got me somewhat worried. My original reaction was, holy fuck, this is going ruin the internet! I was starting to think that things would eventually be so bad and so crippled...
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So I haven't blogged in a while...

I've been doing a lot of thinking, trying to sort my head out after the past few months, and I have actually been coming to some conclusions. I need more productive hobbies, so in light of this, I bought a new camcorder yesterday, so I can get back into making videos etc. again! I used to do it...
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So we got some potentially life changing news at work today. Our office is being effectively ditched and everyone is either being relocated to a new one, or made redundant ("Laid off" in America?). Now, it's really not an option for me to relocate, due to the impracticalities of me actually getting there, so it's looking like I'll have to take the pay off and...
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I should really go to bed, but I don't want to. I find myself in a rather strange mood, that I can't quite put into words, so since I fancy myself as an aspiring writer, I really should make the attempt.

I feel extremely relaxed, but also kind of sad. It's a sadness without any real direction or cause, and it's not depression, but something...
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Birthdays

Where I work, there's a lot of people, and the past few months have included a lot of their birthdays. We normally have a small collection to get a little gift etc. and we all gather around their desk and wish them happy birthday.

It's a nice practice I think, but recently I've been noticing the whole "I'm not telling how old I am,...
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