dspawn0077

Yesterday was a bitter sweet day. On one hand I finally got the house that I was after and became a home owner. Big milestone in anyones life. I am very happy to have achieved it. On the other hand a friendship that I had for the better part of 4 years is offically over. We were best friends for almost the whole time. Went through a lot together. As soon as she got married, she pulled away without one word. A year later I reached out, hoping to find a resolution. With my surprise there looked like there was hope to maybe regain a deeply important friendship. Yesterday I recieved a phone call from her husband. She didnt want to hurt my feelings, and apparently I stir up memories and things she was trying to forget. Some really bad things that I helped her through. I dont want her to feel bad or be unhappy in any way. I must bow out and cut all ties. A complete deletion from my life and my past. Songs must be deleted, pictures, and all contact information. This is one of the most painful things I have ever had to do. Liz, I will miss you greatly. You were a great friend. If you need to have me gone, as much as it pains me, I must forget the fact that you ever existed. Its too painful to just chalk 4 years of happy and wonderful memories up to a loss and waste. I must do what I have to. For your sake and for mine.