drzaius_

Hahahhaahha I must be one blind motherfucker or just the world's biggest sucker. Not that any of you care or have been reading my posts, but turns out the woman that I love, clearly thought was my girlfriend with whom I made love, Isnt. Yup just isnt. I cant tell you all how fucking devestating this is. I bought her a plane ticket down here for hopefully a romantic week but looks like all my plans are for naught. I had everything ready and I get shot down. Jesus H fucking Christ, how the fuck could she not see that I was in love with her. When last we met I was crying my eyes out about her leaving the day before she left. And why the hell couldnt she have told me that she wasnt my girlfriend before I go and spend this money on her. I'll stop short of saying that she used me because im not that mean hearted, and maybe that is my problem, Im too fucking nice for my own good. I was willing to move to another country for this girl, FUCKING HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jesus fucking christ, this is only my second attempt at trying to start a relationship with a girl and this is the second time Ive gotten burned. Whats the point of loving anyways when all you get is heartache and pain? Can any of you explain that for me?