today i wound up in the hospital. Do only to a uncontrolable heart rate. 
Spent the entire day in the hospital..ojoy...came back here found two e-mails. I from the very special person to me and the other from a now x-friend. The x-friend condemmend me for what i want and willing to accept. The xer also wrote a e-mail to the special person. 
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Spent the entire day in the hospital..ojoy...came back here found two e-mails. I from the very special person to me and the other from a now x-friend. The x-friend condemmend me for what i want and willing to accept. The xer also wrote a e-mail to the special person. he hurt... Read More
God i want to write something cheerful..But its hard..hmmmm.. I might ge t he chance to see the one person on my trip i really want to 
and i have been chatting with this person a lot latelyand that lifts my soul.....MY friend still hasn't I.M. me. I am mad and very hurt over this. My trip is in one month and 13 days. Sooo...
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and i have been chatting with this person a lot latelyand that lifts my soul.....MY friend still hasn't I.M. me. I am mad and very hurt over this. My trip is in one month and 13 days. Sooo... Read More
2:30 a.m. I miss someone very much. More now than ever before. I have my reasons. As for the other items happening in my life? Time will tell what happens. I am hurt by what is going on! People not speaking to for no real good reason sucks. But I to have hide and burry all my feelings for everything deep. cut of what i...
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I want it all to end.... If a person wants me to stay out of their life TELL ME don't ignore me, don't push me just tell me. I am being to hate everything in this life and world...Why can people just be fucking open and honest with me. I am not going to break
Trapped in memmorries for two hours sucked . I awakendas ussual but the fear is still there**it always will be**... So I have been up for a long while sitting and thinking. What i should do and not do. One person treats me like gold and the other like i should be scrapped off their boot : l I am at a lose of what...
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. I awakendas ussual but the fear is still there**it always will be**... So I have been up for a long while sitting and thinking. What i should do and not do. One person treats me like gold and the other like i should be scrapped off their boot : l I am at a lose of what... Read More
I over reacted to something i found out. I had no right to, it was plain and simply jealousy. I wish I would have acted better... I never thought i would behave in this manner. I know it is partly do to feeling insecure and not wanting to losing what i have...I can be a complete and utter Morron and Jackass at times
Funny your told you are boring and repetative. And yet the next day the persons appologizes... You know what i do not give a fuck.. I am tired of being the nice guy.
Okay yes i am boring and in a rut. So i don't know what to say so the Fuck what!
I don't force people to chat with me. You do or you don't... To old to care and not interested in hearing bullshit
I don't force people to chat with me. You do or you don't... To old to care and not interested in hearing bullshit
not optomistic i hate writing 
okay it was very optomistic. It was a very rough night... I hate being yelled at. But today i bought my plane tickets and looking forward to my next trip. I hope some of my plans work out
