- This Wasnt Supposed to Happen -
its amazing how cold the world has become, without my sweetie... it's even begun to snow...
i have come to believe that an evil boy took advantage of my lover. by seizing the opportunity to plant lies within her mind... designed to lure her away by making him look better than i. and as i sit.... not only do i find myself hating him, but hating her as well. she said she loved me, but after one momnet of doubt... she runs away. forsaking all that we had built together. we had one fight within 6 months. started over me not reading her mind... then not wanting her to leave in anger over it. all she wanted to do was cuddle... that's it! why couldnt she have told me? its what i wanted to do too! granted... there's more to this story than i am telling. but it doesnt change the overall story. that she left me for a boy filling her head with lies. using our only argument in 6months, as a catalyst to get into her pants. i fucking hate guys! now i sit here an pray to whatever will listen... that she snaps out of it, or he makes a mistake. because this was not meant to happen... she was supposed to be with me.... damn i sound pathetic. but i honestly believe this. and i know as soon as the illusion he's created has been dissolved, the magnitude of her mistake will dawn upon her... and want to come running back to me after letting herself be used by him! my dear... you have been played like a fucking instrument, please come to your senses!!!
my one wish... is "to have this be resolved, and my one love will return". but... with the passage of time, my hurt continues to grow. and her scent opon my clothes more faint. like having the most wonderful dream in the world... then waking up...