devastation...
well... the one person i loved more than anything else in the world, has decided she has no room in her life for me.
im very unstable at the moment. so at the same time... by saying this, i must be allright.... right?
driving 90mph down the highway screaming "fuck" and "why", as i let the tears gloss over my eyes. turning the world into a a mixture of color and sound... the only thing clear, is the pain i'm feeling. and the "why" isnt in redagrds to her leaving me... but as to why i should even bother with life anymore.
i quote kurt...
i will move away frome here
i wont be afraid of fear
i am walkingin the piss
always knew it'd come to this
things have never been so well
i have never felt so well
and as kurt.... it's entirely fucking sarcastic!
i hate myself and want to die...
the ultimate combo with christian slater: Pump Up and HEathers.
i'm grasping at the hope, this will turn out that way. but at the same time... it's hard to explain. but thank you for caring. it means quite a bit to me right now...
<sigh> i need to find sleep