driftmix

as i sit here...

listening to CCR's "bad moon rising"...

i feel SO depressed!

i guess i should go back onto my meds...

ohjeezus... windows media just started playing peter gabriel's "in your eyes". this song kills me... its just so beautiful... i miss my pooka.

what im listening to...

twisted sister - we're not gonna take it
twisted sister - i wanna rock
blondie - call me
blondie - heart of glass
wall of voodoo - mexican radio
kiss - strutter
devo - whip it
devo - girl u want
devo - satisfaction
werid al - dare to be stupid
elo - bring me down
steve miller band - abracadabra...
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now... not that anyone is going ot read this. but i am going to describe a situation to you, then pose a question...

once, when i was 17. i was in a relationship with a girl, who was interested in going camping with me. well.. after i described makingout under the stars in front of an open fire. but... i was too young to get...
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well.. it's about 4am, and it looks as though im finally going to bed. i havent been able to sleep... for awhile now. so ive been staying up rather late each night. tonight... my entertainment was once again, the viewing of fight club.

it's hard being such a romantic... i've been away from k, for what will soon be 2 months. and they have been...
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my xmas...

rain!!! more rain!!! wait... snow!!! snow everywhere!!! car swerving!!! falling trees!!! aaahhh!!!!

lesson learned from this.... umm...

well... i did learn that the sound of a tree falling behind me, as im getting into the car. makes me move alot faster than normal, and the standard prayer of "oh shit" still prevails over the hail mary!

im sorry for my recent desent into unhappy moody bitching... the world just isnt as bright a place, as it was 3 weeks ago.

my heart has been broken... and once more, i continue. but... i am reminded of a star trek tng episode i just recently watched. the one in which "scotty" pays the crew a visit. he said... "there comes a time in...
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does karma like to build up credit with me? like... we're going to have the woman you love leave you for no reason, make your ex hunt you down with crazy ideas of marrage, try to take your car away, and just for kicks... we'll have you get a flat tire, while it's snowing, not let me change it, let you THINK the emergency roadside...
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i hate myself and want to die...

i give up...

- This Wasnt Supposed to Happen -

its amazing how cold the world has become, without my sweetie... it's even begun to snow...

i have come to believe that an evil boy took advantage of my lover. by seizing the opportunity to plant lies within her mind... designed to lure her away by making him look better than i. and as i sit.... not only...
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day no.3 of heartache...

i took a personal day from work today. just couldnt deal with the stupid shit that comes with it today. i'd love to take a vacation... and lose myself. but, that's not possible in my line of work, at this time of year.

i went with a friend to see the new harry potter film. which f'ed me up more. due...
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devastation...

well... the one person i loved more than anything else in the world, has decided she has no room in her life for me.

im very unstable at the moment. so at the same time... by saying this, i must be allright.... right?

driving 90mph down the highway screaming "fuck" and "why", as i let the tears gloss over my eyes. turning the world...
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hi...

just got through watching the movie a.i...

it's such a very depressing film... at least, for me it is. but i found it interesting how in some scenes steven speilberg still tried to emulate stanley kubrick. in sk's films... he always seemed to use light in a very beautiful, subdued way. while also managed to give you the feeling... that something just isnt quite...
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