hey SG land
I don't usually talk about my life only due to not a lot really happening work sleep eat and repeat usually, but some things have come up that i just need to get off my chest (some good, some bad).
anyway so earlier this weekend I decided that i would go back out with the lovely swimforbrighter and I am more determined to make things stay positive and make it work for the long run as she truly is a wonderful beautiful person. We are already making plans on living together and will hopefully be doing so by early next year
. Also when I move over to the US I will be applying to do a photography course, with back up plans in maybe psychology or rehabilitation training or something along the lines of that.
Work has been an interesting area for me due to having issues of too much time off work and just generally getting in to trouble with my supervisor. I am currently on a third and final so any more slip ups and I will be terminated. Luckily for me though things with work have been steady again and I have managed to maintain a solid three weeks of work and no sick days. I know it isn't that long but for me it feels like forever.
lastly, family and my house mates. first off my house mates, I can feel a distance/ tension building between me and my house mates, they are more of the outgoing types where as I am more of the introverted, lets read play board games kind of person. but anyway they went out clubbing all of last night and early morning today i get over 15 phone calls from them (i missed all of them on purpose due to wanting to sleep and knowing what they wanted) asking me to pick them up from the train station, which not only A has buses which wait at the train station plus stop literally 2 minutes from our house, but B would be no more then 45 minute walk. Also I feel as if i am becoming more then nothing but a free taxi to them, they never give me money willingly, I pretty much have to ask them for money as I am the only one with a drivers licence.
lastly my family, none of them really understands my depression, I know they are trying to help but it is just frustrating because they will ask what makes me depressed, tell me that there are people worse off then me etc etc, then they will get frustrated because I can't answer the questions. I wonder how or when I should tell my house mates and family that I will be permanently moving to the US soon.
hope everyone is doing well xoxo
I don't usually talk about my life only due to not a lot really happening work sleep eat and repeat usually, but some things have come up that i just need to get off my chest (some good, some bad).
anyway so earlier this weekend I decided that i would go back out with the lovely swimforbrighter and I am more determined to make things stay positive and make it work for the long run as she truly is a wonderful beautiful person. We are already making plans on living together and will hopefully be doing so by early next year
. Also when I move over to the US I will be applying to do a photography course, with back up plans in maybe psychology or rehabilitation training or something along the lines of that.
Work has been an interesting area for me due to having issues of too much time off work and just generally getting in to trouble with my supervisor. I am currently on a third and final so any more slip ups and I will be terminated. Luckily for me though things with work have been steady again and I have managed to maintain a solid three weeks of work and no sick days. I know it isn't that long but for me it feels like forever.
lastly, family and my house mates. first off my house mates, I can feel a distance/ tension building between me and my house mates, they are more of the outgoing types where as I am more of the introverted, lets read play board games kind of person. but anyway they went out clubbing all of last night and early morning today i get over 15 phone calls from them (i missed all of them on purpose due to wanting to sleep and knowing what they wanted) asking me to pick them up from the train station, which not only A has buses which wait at the train station plus stop literally 2 minutes from our house, but B would be no more then 45 minute walk. Also I feel as if i am becoming more then nothing but a free taxi to them, they never give me money willingly, I pretty much have to ask them for money as I am the only one with a drivers licence.
lastly my family, none of them really understands my depression, I know they are trying to help but it is just frustrating because they will ask what makes me depressed, tell me that there are people worse off then me etc etc, then they will get frustrated because I can't answer the questions. I wonder how or when I should tell my house mates and family that I will be permanently moving to the US soon.
hope everyone is doing well xoxo
Sorry about your roommates and family, though. Maybe moving away is exactly what you need.