Kind of continuing on from my last blog, I said that my ex hadn't contacted me at all that day and that I didn't think he would. He ended up texting me that night, well, morning at around 1:30AM. I was upset and I don't know way for sure but I actually didn't text him back this time. Instead I waited until the morning and I wrote him back saying "Goodmorninggg, sorry I didn't get back to you last night. I was shleepin. How are you?"
-no reply-
Note that this is now the day of the move when I got back to him and I texted him back at 9:40AM. Maybe he was really busy moving and whatnot and really couldn't get back to me, but honestly? The least he could do was say i'm moving or soooomethingggggg. I went out around 4PM with my friend Stephanie, I needed to do something to get my mind off him. We end up going to the mall and I tell her the latest news about me and my ex because she asked how that's going. We came to the conclusion girls always go for assholes that don't treat them right because it's a challenge. She brought up her past flings and relationships and basically all of them have been assholes or just fuck ups with the exception of one or two. I remember this guy Mark she had a thing with. Nobody liked him, he was an asshole to her and everyone around him, he lied to her, made her feel stupid and she drove herself crazy over him because he said really sweet things to her at first, was really good looking, and then started playing games and she liked him more and more because he started messing with her mind/heart and pushing her away. We want someone hard to get and for it to not feel like there was no chase at all and have a relationship to be basically handed to you. It feels better when you work hard to get someone. We all want something we can't have.
Anyway.. after the mall we went back to her house around 5:30PM and decided to start drinking because we both really didn't want to deal with boy drama and emotions. I still couldn't fully get my ex off my mind. I didn't have that sunken chest feeling and didn't feel like I wanted to cry, which was good but I still felt bad because he still hadn't tried to contact me. Hours go by and we are still drinking. It rolled around to 10PM and I asked Stephanie if I should text him again. Of coarse she told me yes and that I should call him out and ask what was up, but I really didn't want to start anything with him and I knew that would definitely get me in some sort of mess so I texted him at 10:03PM saying "Heyyyyyyyy."
-no reply-
This is when I get really upset because well come on, what the fuck? He's never ignored me for a whole day before. At this point I feel like it's not because he's moving anymore, he really is just blowing me off. I leave Stephanie's around 5AM, go home and pass out. I just woke up around maybe a half an hour ago and I text Cris again. This time I realize that he still has a hat of mine that I keep forgetting he has so I text him with "Can you do my a favor? Next time you see David can you give him my hat so that he can get it back to me please?" So then once he gives David my hat then I can give David all his clothes, his tooth brush, just all his shit.
-no reply-
It has actually been a little over an hour since I sent that and it's wednesday so he's more than likely at work. If he doesn't get back to me on this one then I'll seriously think something is up. You know sitting here thinking about it I realize that when he lived at his parent's house they were the ones who payed his cell phone bill. I don't know that if they would cancel that and make him pay for it on his own because he doesn't live with them anymore? I don't know.. I need to stop making excuses.
Holy shit. As I was writing that last part he texts me...
Cris: "I guessssss hater!"
I don't really even know what to say back, because if I do I'll end up being sweet and nice like always and make it seem like there is nothing wrong and then he'll continue to do what he's doing.
I'm going to wait till later to text him back. I'm going to Stephanie's around 1 for lunch so I'll use that time to get my head on straight and think this out more on how I should respond.
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Silly me, I replied anyway..
Conversation:
Cris: "I guessssssss hater!" (10:45AM)
Cris: "ihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyou" (11:01AM)
Me: "Rly?"
Cris: "Maybe... =]"
Me: "Hah, how was movinggg?"
Cris: "It was aight. How was your bukkake party?"
Me: "Oh outstanding, haha."
Cris: "You'e fuckin' gross. Hahaha."
Me: "You know O kidz, so ish okay! =]"
Cris: "Hahaha I guess. How are you cutestuff? lol"
Me: "lol, I'm good. Just playing the sims and then going out to lunch with Stephanie around oneee. I've gotten a lot of hours at work! I'm happeh. How are yewwwww?"
-no reply- .... yet?
Who called that though? I'll be nice and sweet and it will make him believe that nothings wrong... -_-
-no reply-
Note that this is now the day of the move when I got back to him and I texted him back at 9:40AM. Maybe he was really busy moving and whatnot and really couldn't get back to me, but honestly? The least he could do was say i'm moving or soooomethingggggg. I went out around 4PM with my friend Stephanie, I needed to do something to get my mind off him. We end up going to the mall and I tell her the latest news about me and my ex because she asked how that's going. We came to the conclusion girls always go for assholes that don't treat them right because it's a challenge. She brought up her past flings and relationships and basically all of them have been assholes or just fuck ups with the exception of one or two. I remember this guy Mark she had a thing with. Nobody liked him, he was an asshole to her and everyone around him, he lied to her, made her feel stupid and she drove herself crazy over him because he said really sweet things to her at first, was really good looking, and then started playing games and she liked him more and more because he started messing with her mind/heart and pushing her away. We want someone hard to get and for it to not feel like there was no chase at all and have a relationship to be basically handed to you. It feels better when you work hard to get someone. We all want something we can't have.
Anyway.. after the mall we went back to her house around 5:30PM and decided to start drinking because we both really didn't want to deal with boy drama and emotions. I still couldn't fully get my ex off my mind. I didn't have that sunken chest feeling and didn't feel like I wanted to cry, which was good but I still felt bad because he still hadn't tried to contact me. Hours go by and we are still drinking. It rolled around to 10PM and I asked Stephanie if I should text him again. Of coarse she told me yes and that I should call him out and ask what was up, but I really didn't want to start anything with him and I knew that would definitely get me in some sort of mess so I texted him at 10:03PM saying "Heyyyyyyyy."
-no reply-
This is when I get really upset because well come on, what the fuck? He's never ignored me for a whole day before. At this point I feel like it's not because he's moving anymore, he really is just blowing me off. I leave Stephanie's around 5AM, go home and pass out. I just woke up around maybe a half an hour ago and I text Cris again. This time I realize that he still has a hat of mine that I keep forgetting he has so I text him with "Can you do my a favor? Next time you see David can you give him my hat so that he can get it back to me please?" So then once he gives David my hat then I can give David all his clothes, his tooth brush, just all his shit.
-no reply-
It has actually been a little over an hour since I sent that and it's wednesday so he's more than likely at work. If he doesn't get back to me on this one then I'll seriously think something is up. You know sitting here thinking about it I realize that when he lived at his parent's house they were the ones who payed his cell phone bill. I don't know that if they would cancel that and make him pay for it on his own because he doesn't live with them anymore? I don't know.. I need to stop making excuses.
Holy shit. As I was writing that last part he texts me...
Cris: "I guessssss hater!"
I don't really even know what to say back, because if I do I'll end up being sweet and nice like always and make it seem like there is nothing wrong and then he'll continue to do what he's doing.
I'm going to wait till later to text him back. I'm going to Stephanie's around 1 for lunch so I'll use that time to get my head on straight and think this out more on how I should respond.
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Silly me, I replied anyway..
Conversation:
Cris: "I guessssssss hater!" (10:45AM)
Cris: "ihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyou" (11:01AM)
Me: "Rly?"
Cris: "Maybe... =]"
Me: "Hah, how was movinggg?"
Cris: "It was aight. How was your bukkake party?"
Me: "Oh outstanding, haha."
Cris: "You'e fuckin' gross. Hahaha."
Me: "You know O kidz, so ish okay! =]"
Cris: "Hahaha I guess. How are you cutestuff? lol"
Me: "lol, I'm good. Just playing the sims and then going out to lunch with Stephanie around oneee. I've gotten a lot of hours at work! I'm happeh. How are yewwwww?"
-no reply- .... yet?
Who called that though? I'll be nice and sweet and it will make him believe that nothings wrong... -_-
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so with this guy she has to treat him this way because subconsciously this is what he wants. A challenge.