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I guess last night was a night for confessions.

I've been talking to a guy since me and my ex first took a break and I sincerely liked him and he was really into me too. When me and my ex got back together for a second try I stopped talking to this other guy but feelings for him still lingered. So recently when my ex and I broke up again I decided to start talking to this other guy again too. He was helping me to move on from my ex and I was happy with my progress that I was making. Then I find out that my friend made out with his guy while we were talking and they tried to keep it from me.

I confronted the guy about it and at first he tried laughing it off like I would be oh so okay with it if the situation was turned into one big joke. He caught on that I was not happy at all and then tried to lie his way out of it, blaming it all on my friend like he had no say in what happened at all.

The only reason why I'm so mad about the situation is because I was lied to about it for months. My friend tried telling me she made out with him after it happened but she didn't like my reaction and then took it back and told me that she was completely kidding. I asked him about it a few days later and he told me nothing happened. I guess they had a conversation with each other and my friend made him promise that he wouldn't tell anyone because she talked to me about it and told him that if I knew the truth then I would be done with him. He didn't want that because I was "number one" on his list, so says my friend.

After I called him out for lying to my face last night and told him that I was done with him he fessed up and said "Ok. I do remember after it happened that she told me that I couldn't tell anyone. I will at least say you were by far the best girl I've been with." I wanted so badly to just say fuck you to him, but I left. Maybe the alcohol was making me think differently. I didn't want to be there.

I changed my myspace status and my ex (the one I'm having trouble letting go) texts me asking why I was pissed. I just told him that my friend pissed me off and he asked "Ohh, why soo cutebutt?" which threw me off... but I told him just stuff that should have been said awhile ago and that I was lied to. He said that he apologizes, so I told him, that it wasn't his fault. He then told me that he thinks he broke his toe after he kicked his garbage can. I told him that I was sorry, asked why he would do a silly thing like that, and then so stupidly told him "I like it when you call me cutebutt btw.." He didn't reply for a bit and then said "lol. Sorry." I asked him "What?" and he told me he was drunk. So... basically he just called me cutebutt and was actually nice only because he was drunk. Cooooooool.

I got home and decided to text my ex ex boyfriend because I knew he would be up and told him the story and he said "Dang I am sorry, but to be honest you were the coolest girl I ever met. I really truly did love you and you will always have a place in my heart. You don't deserve getting lied to or even getting talked to rudely even if it is their personality."

How can I be so amazing, great, and cool to these guys and all of them just seem to fuck me over one after the other? And they all seem to want to apologize to me, but for what? Everyone likes to say sorry but they wont act on their mistakes and try to fix them. They are all empty apologies.

I'm done with shitty friends, shitty boys, and shitty people.