drechana

Hey all

Not sure what to write here. ummm...well today is prolly going ot be the worst day i have had in nearly two years. Me and sarah have split up and i dont even know why im telling you all cause u dont know her but i feel i need to get it off my chest and tell people..its weird..it feels like im bragging about it or something but im not..i dont know grrr

i had to do it because i cant do long distance and things were just not right..goin in seperate directions and all that other pretentious shite (if thats how u spell it)

its not u its me..u know the deal. anyways so life is pretty fucked up at the moment. october seems very upset at the moment too which i dont like. God i really hope i have done the right thing.

im a bit hungry but i cant eat cause i have a hangover..i went to subversion last night which was shite..i felt so uncomfortable cause everyone had black on and i was wearing khaki trousers and a white t shirt..i had to go...so i left dave fish there and went to the curry house on my own and ate on my own. was weird but kinda good.

needed to time on my own but out of the house to think about what i was planning to do. wasnt planning on doin it this morning but she came down and it just ahppened. i couldnt live a lie anymore. and here come the tears...anyways not sure why im crying..isnt the person who does the finishing the one who doesnt feel anything?

im really going to miss her, but we just wernt compatible...we were from different worlds. fucking hate myself at the moment...hope it gets easier.

just a lil though tfor everyone...when does excitment become impatience?...anyways back to the subject at hand.... aww cock it i cant be assed anymore...hope ur all good...

drech