drcareless

Being scared is not an option

I just woke, it's my 'easter day off'. I'm suppose to be happy, right? Not that I am sad, but I thought way too much the last couple of days and I feel more jaded than anything right now.

As if nothing really matters

As of nothing ever mattered.

But that's the way it goes right? You site home alone for two days and you think about who you are, where you are standing and want you want to do with your life. All in all, this ain't a bad situation but when all you think about is how much you would like to be a single-parent ... that's just plain weird.

When I project myself, 5 years from now, I see a little boy with a jumpsuit on but I don't see no wife...I don't see no house ... I don't see no job hell, I don't even see a car. But I can figure out a kid that I'll carry everywhere I go. My always annoying shadow that I wouldn't trade for all the quiet time in the world.

Why's that?

I don't know, but I guess that's why I hate 'family oriented holidays' like Easter. It just reminds me tons of stuff that I'll never have...

Cheers y'all!