She lets herself vanish
Behind artificial walls.
Her life may seem stable
But her mind is in chaos.
On the outside she's cold
On the inside she's lost.
And there's nothing
That can cure her
Except feeling the pain she's caused.
Her wounds have been opened
And will never heal.
Her mind has shut down
So she can never feel.
Turning off the world
Is her only release.
Somehow she wishes
That her thoughts would cease.
Any emotion
Scares her to death.
Push them all aside
Because they were never there.
But the emotion she feels
She can no longer bare.
-Dani
There's nothing like a nice steaming cup of reality to greet you in the morning. Its like someone slamming a door in your face... or a fist, depending on how harsh the reality is. I can dream at night while I'm sleeping, and I can hope that everything will be okay while I'm awake. But in those few minutes that you wake up in the morning, your half asleep and there is no stopping the reality smack in the face. My eyes slid open and I layed there for at least 20 minutes thinking, "Oh shit, Danielle, what have you gotten yourself into this time?" I only allowed myself 20 minutes though. 20 minutes to ponder all of the things in my life that could come to suck horribly, and after 20 minutes had gone by, I put my fake smile back on, and got ready for class. Same shit, different day, and I was right. Today was nothing but a waste of my time, which is why I'm saying nothing else about it... other than: "Today sucked. Maybe tomorrow will be better?"
Love Dani
Behind artificial walls.
Her life may seem stable
But her mind is in chaos.
On the outside she's cold
On the inside she's lost.
And there's nothing
That can cure her
Except feeling the pain she's caused.
Her wounds have been opened
And will never heal.
Her mind has shut down
So she can never feel.
Turning off the world
Is her only release.
Somehow she wishes
That her thoughts would cease.
Any emotion
Scares her to death.
Push them all aside
Because they were never there.
But the emotion she feels
She can no longer bare.
-Dani
There's nothing like a nice steaming cup of reality to greet you in the morning. Its like someone slamming a door in your face... or a fist, depending on how harsh the reality is. I can dream at night while I'm sleeping, and I can hope that everything will be okay while I'm awake. But in those few minutes that you wake up in the morning, your half asleep and there is no stopping the reality smack in the face. My eyes slid open and I layed there for at least 20 minutes thinking, "Oh shit, Danielle, what have you gotten yourself into this time?" I only allowed myself 20 minutes though. 20 minutes to ponder all of the things in my life that could come to suck horribly, and after 20 minutes had gone by, I put my fake smile back on, and got ready for class. Same shit, different day, and I was right. Today was nothing but a waste of my time, which is why I'm saying nothing else about it... other than: "Today sucked. Maybe tomorrow will be better?"
Love Dani
davehidden:
You know, you write very well. I must say, I don't like to read that you are seemingly so unhappy though. That's no good. Maybe you need a change. Avoid the same shit on a different day somehow. You should write more.
fairyjochen:
nice steaming cup of reality, all night long..