Why am I here,

Let me tell you something about myself. I never really caught on to the online generation. I never before Had a blog, I am not good at making friendships online, I am a very visual guy, that loves direct and straightforward communication. I like talking to people, over the phone or face to face. This is why I am kind of retarded with regards to this online community thing. I feel that I should only say something if I have something to say and no one has said it before. Likewise I have a hard time putting my head around the online community as a whole. Now don't get me wrong I am here and I am trying. Like I have written eariler I am writing this for no one other then myself. THis is as much a private journal of my mental battles as it is a place to express things. This is also a good time to apologize for anyone who may hppen to look at this. There is rarely a straight line to my ravings they are just that, the random thoughts and ideas. I just like having a place to join them all into one location. Every once and a While I reread the notes and comments I have made to see if some thought I had at a given second has maybe been lost. I sometimes catch one that came up while writting that got noted here or elsewere and then forgotten. So this is essentially for me, and anyone who might dare enter the rantings of a madman. Just kidding my diagnosis is way different then Madman.

Cheers all.