thanx everyone for your comments.....i was havin a bad day...a lot of bad memories came flooding back for NO APPARENT reason....i think i'm ok now....i just needed to get shit off my chest and then be alone for a bit.
good news-i emailed a guy the other day that might take my set pics!!! i'm hoping!!!
more bad news--
dude...I really wanna get the hell outta Pcola about now. I mean..I think i'm starting to actually find a place here....that's not good. I dont wanna find a place here cause i dont wanna stay here...but at the same time....if i dont get into UF then stayin here wouldnt be THAT bad anymore...I could just go to UF for grad school and stuff.....but I wanna go to SU.....goddammit!!!! i'm so confused...I dont know what i want anymore!!! ...but i may not be able to get into UF.....but should i move there newayz or stay here and then transfer for my PhD? it's all so confusing!!! i know i want my PhD...but is it really necessary? NO not for the carrier i want...i CAN make it w/o a degree at all....but its so fucking hard to make it w/ or w/o an education.........this sucks.
if I stay at UWF and change my major back to music.....i'll graduate next spring...... if i actually get into UF i'll have atleast 2-3 years after this one before I get my BA..... i can still go to UF for grad school.....but i wont be able to go to SU b/c i wont have the composition background.... i have a good job i can keep for a long time, and an apartment and a kickass roomy who wont be leaving for a few years here....if i go to uf i wont have all that... i stiill wanna try to see, but that will waste money...going to gainesville for the weekend and the app fees i'll have to pay... i'm not completely sure what i want to do....i HATE pensacola, but my music teachers are really kew and teh comm arts students are really kew.....and i love the people i work with.....and i have the kewest neighbors...........but i REALLY want to start my composition classes.... if i stay here i can do composition in my spare time and the orchestra/band/whoever will premere them (dr lauderdale and my band director have seen my stuff and they love it)..... and it'll save money in the long run cause of the student loans i'd have to take out at UF.....but I REALLY REALLY REALLY want my composition classes to start this summer and i really wanna be in a marching band again
HELP!!!!!
more good news...kinda--
I met the most AWESOME GUY the other night online...bummer..he lives in Brooklyn
good news-i emailed a guy the other day that might take my set pics!!! i'm hoping!!!
more bad news--
dude...I really wanna get the hell outta Pcola about now. I mean..I think i'm starting to actually find a place here....that's not good. I dont wanna find a place here cause i dont wanna stay here...but at the same time....if i dont get into UF then stayin here wouldnt be THAT bad anymore...I could just go to UF for grad school and stuff.....but I wanna go to SU.....goddammit!!!! i'm so confused...I dont know what i want anymore!!! ...but i may not be able to get into UF.....but should i move there newayz or stay here and then transfer for my PhD? it's all so confusing!!! i know i want my PhD...but is it really necessary? NO not for the carrier i want...i CAN make it w/o a degree at all....but its so fucking hard to make it w/ or w/o an education.........this sucks.
if I stay at UWF and change my major back to music.....i'll graduate next spring...... if i actually get into UF i'll have atleast 2-3 years after this one before I get my BA..... i can still go to UF for grad school.....but i wont be able to go to SU b/c i wont have the composition background.... i have a good job i can keep for a long time, and an apartment and a kickass roomy who wont be leaving for a few years here....if i go to uf i wont have all that... i stiill wanna try to see, but that will waste money...going to gainesville for the weekend and the app fees i'll have to pay... i'm not completely sure what i want to do....i HATE pensacola, but my music teachers are really kew and teh comm arts students are really kew.....and i love the people i work with.....and i have the kewest neighbors...........but i REALLY want to start my composition classes.... if i stay here i can do composition in my spare time and the orchestra/band/whoever will premere them (dr lauderdale and my band director have seen my stuff and they love it)..... and it'll save money in the long run cause of the student loans i'd have to take out at UF.....but I REALLY REALLY REALLY want my composition classes to start this summer and i really wanna be in a marching band again
HELP!!!!!
more good news...kinda--
I met the most AWESOME GUY the other night online...bummer..he lives in Brooklyn
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industrialpet:
happy halloween! 
mrbillzdog:
wow girl you have a lot of friends these days. Soon you'll be too popular 
. Anyhow if you're planning on coming to gville for the weekend as you mentioned just let me know.
. Anyhow if you're planning on coming to gville for the weekend as you mentioned just let me know.