Monday Oct 18, 2004

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I thought it was over
but I guess it's just begun
I can't shake the weakness
I can't shake the fear
I can't shake the shame
you made me feel

You fucked up my life
I hope you're happy now
You made me afraid to trust
You made me close myself off
after I had just begun to open up
You're a fucking bastard

Just when I think I've gotten past
all the pain, all the suffering
it comes back to haunt me
it comes back to tease
it comes back to rub it in my face
that I am nothing

You made me feel like a whore
You made me feel like I didn't
diserve to live, to breathe
You sick fucking bastard
how can you do this to anyone?
how could you do this to me?

It's your fault but
You made ME feel guilty
You made ME feel afraid
You made ME weak
and you dont fucking care
just as long as you're not caught

I wish I could say
I'll make you pay
but I'm to afraid, to weak
and it's YOUR fault I'm this way
but I cant seem to convince myself
that it's not me


I just feel so emotionally drained right now......I need a friend, but i'm afraid to talk to anyone about this.......and I dont even know why
industrialpet:
i know you don't really know me very well but if you wanna email me and just vent go right ahead..if you are talking about what i think you are then i have been there and i understand frown kiss kiss kiss
serialx:
"Just when I think I've gotten past...it comes back to rub it in my face that I am nothing"
"It's your fault, but you made me feel guilty. You made me feel afraid. You made me weak, and you dont fucking care as long as you're not caught"
"I wish I could say, "I'll make you pay"; but I'm to afraid, to weak and it's your fault I'm this way.I cant seem to convince myself that it's not me"

I hope this is just a poem and not that someone actually made you feel this way. If so then maybe you should'nt bear all that much weight for someone who can care whether you live or die. This is just my opinion and not worth two fucking cents...

Bamf!

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