Hi all.
Been a while eh?
Hope everyone is doing well.
Life has been hectic in a way. One more test to pass to be licensed and boy is the deadline looming close.
Also trying to job hunt like horribly. Cause def want to and need to work for money and just to out of my house.
Lately I have been having weird anxiety and panic attacks some related to a recent ex/fling guy and ugh it bothers me horribly because I would love the power, my power to go to palaces we used to go and reclaim a bit of normalcy going to those areas. Like I'll probably never go to the tattoo shop again but other places like Chinatown and places near there. Would be nice like I had an awesome lead on work from @rebelle_outlaw but the day I was suppose to go down there I panicked so bad I ended up in the er and it makes me feels so worse. Like I couldn't breathe they had to do an EKG panic attack.
I also feel like cause I am not where I think I should be at 25 or where I thought I would be at this stage in t life that adds to my stress levels and such.
Also I really would like to try dating and all but I feel like it's a no for me lately. Like I don't feel right now I would make a good girlfriend or I don't feel drawn enough to get out of my box and also I am very protective of my heart at the moment. Cause most recent break up was absolutely horrible and he was utterly cruel and mean. Like I just don't feel like giving my energy away at the moment is that bad? Like I want happily ever after so bad but I also right now am just idk can't ?
Also saving money what little I have after bills and student loans to try to go to a few shoot fest next year. If you can or would like to help I have a go fund me set up and would gladly send you the link.
Also I loved the guardians of the galaxy so much. Like let's all be groot. Also working on a gamora cosplay may debut her at New York comic con.
Also to keep in touch on a more frequent bases I have a tumblr : thehopefulchibi.tumblr.com
And insta my hopeful one is : Chibi_hopeful
And twitter is : thehopefulchibi and lov3revolution
Later loves
