As those of you who have followed me through last year will know Saturday was the anniversary of my sister in law (whom was more like a sister) loosing her fight with cancer. Now onto what the title means, our family is close as can be i have never really with held information from my parents or brother. This changed this year as i tried to be strong for them over the loss, especially for my brother, I made the mistake of not letting myself grieve which with a few factors that are trivial but due to all that was going on led to me suffering stress and depression. I kept this hidden from my parents and brother not wanting to burden them further, It was a work colleague that noticed the changes as he put it "Gone was the man who laughed and joked" instead i had short temper and became reclusive. he being my Non commissioned officer (NCO) took me into the sgts office where the chief was waiting and they managed to get me to reveal what it was that had gotten into me. These two men didn't say a thing as Man who was older than one of them and had been shot at mortared and whilst working as a prison officer dealt with murderers and had been threatened with knives etc. broke down in tears. With there help and the help of the Padre's on camp i managed to work my issues out and i am almost back to the way i was. My family still don't know but the thing i am getting at is if you feel depressed or have worries find someone who can listen don't let it stew like i did i admitted i had thought of ending it but i realised how much more hurt it would cause my family and friends. I now do case work and have become a mental health first aider and a TRIM practitioner if i can help one person to not follow the path i nearly tread then i will consider it worth it. This week end i felt myself slip back but i made myself do things including going to cinema.
SO PLEASE DON'T BE ASHAMED TO ASK FOR HELP!!!!!!!!!
