It's a beautiful but hot day out right now. I'm home and here on sg but I'm really not happy right now. This morning on the way to class my bike stopped going forward and started making real unpleasant noises. The tow cost me 104 dollars and the mechanic estimates 450 for parts and labor to fix my blown out rear end. Don't know at this point if it's something I could have prevented if I'd known the problem could possibly exist.
The guy driving the tow truck suggested that the problem my car has might be a seized thermostat, I should pull it out and see if the car still overheats. Popped the hood open after lunch but I couldn't locate the thermostat.
I guess lots of people are getting fucked for money all the time so I'm not special. The suckiness of having marginally enough cash to survive, if that, is a why I'm in cdl school anyway. I think maybe it's time to be a grownup and sell the bike after it's fixed, and get a better car, then sell the old car. I bought the bike with money from my car accident bodily injury settlement, i didn't earn that money and I wasted a lot of it. A 36 year old child in many respects. Was trying to live a lifestyle beyond my means. When I'm truckin I won't have that much time for biking anyway, and If I do I'll have enough cash to pick up a nice inexpensive bike anyway. Ever notice that I keep repeating words like "anyway"? Anyway. . .
There's a couple of jobs around I could apply for that are much closer than yankee candle but are not quite satisfactory. There's a cashier job in a truck stop, but in a part of springfield you don't really want to be in at night let alone at a cash register. Then there's a job close by at RPS freght but it's only part time.
I know there are no obstructions, but a part of me really wants to see losing about 650 dollars or so to repairs and lost time at work as one. I can see that I actually want to feel bad about this. it just seem the right thing to do, and my anxiety is no small factor in that equation. Maybe there are no obstructions, but there are anxieties and disappointments and stresses and big fucking pains in the ass and bills and employers and so forth, that can really gang up on you and make you feel like there are obstructions.
The guy driving the tow truck suggested that the problem my car has might be a seized thermostat, I should pull it out and see if the car still overheats. Popped the hood open after lunch but I couldn't locate the thermostat.
I guess lots of people are getting fucked for money all the time so I'm not special. The suckiness of having marginally enough cash to survive, if that, is a why I'm in cdl school anyway. I think maybe it's time to be a grownup and sell the bike after it's fixed, and get a better car, then sell the old car. I bought the bike with money from my car accident bodily injury settlement, i didn't earn that money and I wasted a lot of it. A 36 year old child in many respects. Was trying to live a lifestyle beyond my means. When I'm truckin I won't have that much time for biking anyway, and If I do I'll have enough cash to pick up a nice inexpensive bike anyway. Ever notice that I keep repeating words like "anyway"? Anyway. . .
There's a couple of jobs around I could apply for that are much closer than yankee candle but are not quite satisfactory. There's a cashier job in a truck stop, but in a part of springfield you don't really want to be in at night let alone at a cash register. Then there's a job close by at RPS freght but it's only part time.
I know there are no obstructions, but a part of me really wants to see losing about 650 dollars or so to repairs and lost time at work as one. I can see that I actually want to feel bad about this. it just seem the right thing to do, and my anxiety is no small factor in that equation. Maybe there are no obstructions, but there are anxieties and disappointments and stresses and big fucking pains in the ass and bills and employers and so forth, that can really gang up on you and make you feel like there are obstructions.
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sureality:
I am so glad you enjoyed the new Alexsandria Shoot. Check out my journal for behind the scenes.
lizzi:
You know, "Drain the main vein"? "Main drain", same thing. You know, like a dong, phallus, dick, cock, tube steak, knob, schlong, wang, pecker, johnson, rod, shaft, weiner...it's a penis.