dr_john

i had this awful dream last night. i was in a hotel room with shuli and we were alone. for some reason we were fighting, which we never do and i started yelling at her and calling her all of these outrageous names. it was like i was picking apart her life but everything i was yelling about didn't actually apply to her so the whole time i was thinking in my head that i was just yelling at her and saying all of these horrible things for no reason but i felt like i couldn't take any of it back. anyway, i woke up, freaking out, thinking that i had said of these horrible untrue things to her. it's not a nice thing to wake up thinking you've hurt someone you love. thank goodness it was only a nightmare.

i love you shuli.