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I'm worried about RoadtoRuin. I probably shouldn't say anything because its not my place. It looks like she is having some of the feelings/ problems I had at the same age while going to the same college. What to do....
I'm too emotional.

That last entry I wrote seems a little weird now that I see it again. I was buzzed at the time so that would do it and was feeling a bit happier than today which has been a tough day. Work really ran me down, made me discouraged about my life, etc. I feeling a bit tired or else I would send out my job...
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Went out and had a few beers tonight and someone the only person I have had a serious crush on for a long time. I don't want to say much in case someone knows who she is.
I enjoyed the drinking very much, I always forgot how good I feel which is for the best since Id be drinking constantly. I guess for me as...
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Feeling a little weird today and still exhausted from the weekend. Not sure whats wrong. Id love to take a day from work. I made arrangements to see Star Wars Thursday .
Here's my geeky reference that I have to get off my chest. When I was a kid I could clearly see Darth Vader as a bad guy and I thought everything was simple...
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Just got back from my trip and was feeling incredibly exhausted so I did nothing but watch tv in bed for 3 hours and feeling a bit better. I went with an extremely high maintenance friend and I think that just wore me out. I have to be aware that I enjoy going to concerts more alone than with him.
During the U2 concert last...
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uh oh its friday the 13th. I have a job interview tomorrow which Im not too nervous about. Then go to work. Then going to baltimore to stay with a friend then to Philly to see
u2. Im going with a very high maintenance guy friend and I will be hitting the bottle so he doesnt stress me out. Its no the healthy way to...
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I'm really PO'd at a few people. Its not worth talking about. I don't deal with anger well. I just wish I could walk away from everything here and start over tomorrow. I'd rather get in a fight than have sex. My sex drive is nonexistent. I could use a hug but dont have someone for that.

So I have a friend that I have known since I was a little kid. I was thinking its been about 25 years. My friend is married ( I was best man, see the tux gallery '98). He and his wife had a baby last year and they having her 1st birthday party in about 3 weeks.
This is where its complicated. I had a...
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I posted some pics of me at weddings because I can laugh at myself. Weddings are the only time they can manage to do it. Im a bit camera shy.

Im really tired so I think I will get caught up on sleep for the week. Maybe will go to c-ville for the dawning tonight if I'm feeling bold and willing to drive. If that goes well then perhaps its one more reason to conside moving there. I always had good times in c-ville. I'd be a bad influence on my cousin at UVA but...
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