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I got upset about somethings earlier today but now I'm sort of thinking things over mentally. Just in a serious thoughtful state of mind.

Its a beautiful clear night and I might drive out to Powhatan to look at stars for a bit. I have to look out for bears and rednecks.
I'm planning to go see the Pixies in Raleigh in a few weeks...
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This afternoon I heard something about Tom Cruise telling Brooke Shields she should not have take antidepressants and should have taken vitamins. Evidently he disagrees with using antidepressants completely. What the fuck?
Look I think you make pretty good movies but who the hell are you to give fucking medical advice. Yeah I have been on antidepressants so I have a problem with that. First...
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I remember reading a quote somewhere, I dont remember what it came from. It said "anger is a gift, which might have been intended to be sarcastic. I guess it sums up how I have been feeling. Things in my life need to change and anger seems to push me further along to do it. The thing I wrote about yesterday is just an example...
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My job was completely horrific today. To elaborate would wear me out entirely but one of many bad things that happened in this fucked up situation was a coworker saying that I "need to be a man". To that motherfucker I now say what I should have said. I have handled more shit in my life at my age then most people put up with...
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I've been kind of mad since this afternoon. Some bullshit that I had to deal with at work. I'll just say I'm finally learning not to be so nice to people at my job because they will push you to your limits of what you will tolerate regardless of what the limits are so might as well put a stop to it early.
Otherwise I'm...
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1 year older, No big deal really. But its definitely a point to look where I am in life and where I would like to be. Actually I should fucking be in Philadelphia again for the 2nd U2 show since its my birthday and all. I guess that same girl wouldnt use my arm as a boobrest for half the show again this time.
Seriously...
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I'm worried about RoadtoRuin. I probably shouldn't say anything because its not my place. It looks like she is having some of the feelings/ problems I had at the same age while going to the same college. What to do....
I'm too emotional.

That last entry I wrote seems a little weird now that I see it again. I was buzzed at the time so that would do it and was feeling a bit happier than today which has been a tough day. Work really ran me down, made me discouraged about my life, etc. I feeling a bit tired or else I would send out my job...
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Went out and had a few beers tonight and someone the only person I have had a serious crush on for a long time. I don't want to say much in case someone knows who she is.
I enjoyed the drinking very much, I always forgot how good I feel which is for the best since Id be drinking constantly. I guess for me as...
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Feeling a little weird today and still exhausted from the weekend. Not sure whats wrong. Id love to take a day from work. I made arrangements to see Star Wars Thursday .
Here's my geeky reference that I have to get off my chest. When I was a kid I could clearly see Darth Vader as a bad guy and I thought everything was simple...
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Just got back from my trip and was feeling incredibly exhausted so I did nothing but watch tv in bed for 3 hours and feeling a bit better. I went with an extremely high maintenance friend and I think that just wore me out. I have to be aware that I enjoy going to concerts more alone than with him.
During the U2 concert last...
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uh oh its friday the 13th. I have a job interview tomorrow which Im not too nervous about. Then go to work. Then going to baltimore to stay with a friend then to Philly to see
u2. Im going with a very high maintenance guy friend and I will be hitting the bottle so he doesnt stress me out. Its no the healthy way to...
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