dovienya

Firstly, during my days of flu derived status as a shut in, I ended up spending a lot of time thinking. Certainly not always a good thing, but oh well. I was actually too wiped out to even play video games, so I just lay around a lot living inside my head.

I really dont spend very many hours a week playing video games, but I think I need to cut down. Those precious hours could be better used putting my brain to productive work. So let's see how a geek does reducing his gaming habit. Wish me luck!

On the subject of more productive things, I realize I'm finding myself wanting to get back on track with some goals of mine. I describe myself as not being a very ambitious person, and to an extent that is true. I do have specific goals in life though. They just dont fit with the whole american ideal of ambition. I dont crave riches, fame, or power. I want a good career, but I dont desire to be some high paid executive or whatnot. Those types of jobs make demands on your personal life, and it doesnt seem that very many people realize that their personal life is the part of life that is important! I want a good enough paying position that I can do my share to support the familiy I'd eventually like (yeah. me. with kids. that should be interesting) to have while only working a more part time position. That way I actually have free time to spend with my family. Families anymore really dont seem to get to be together... I grew up that way, and I cant see me starting a family under those conditions.

Of course, that means I need to develop my skills further, so that I can get a job that would support that. So some of the time that I'm going to try to put to more productive use is going to go into getting myself back into the educational treadmill. I dont think I'm going to go enroll in any classes again just yet, but now would be a good time to complete some technical certifications. I'll probably finally get my A+ out of the way sometime pretty soon. That test should be a breeze, but I wouldnt mind brushing up real fast beforehand. I do want to get my Network + and CCNA, so those are both ones I should get in some studying for. I used to work supporting Dell, and run a bunch of Dell servers at my work now, so getting the first tier or two of Dell certifications should be pretty easy. And then there will be the eventual MCSE (and MCP while on the way there) to be had. If anyone has any texts for any of these that they would be willing to loan me, that would be awesome. Plus it would save me a lot of money.

Oddly, thanks to a discussion in the Dating Sucks group, and some of my own thinking, I've started clarifying my thoughts on dating. Dating doesn't actually suck. At least not totally. I've kept in sort of contact with some of the girls I've dated over the past year or so. All their real goal seems to be with it is to have a date for whatever night(s) of the week they happen to want a date on. Dating sucks purely because if you get into the dating game, you end up dating people that only want to date or hook up!

Since I'm not a hook-up kind of person, I think I can feel pretty justified truly bailing on the dating game. What that means for me is that if I'm wanting to be going out with someone, I should be friends with them prior. Of course, I've had bad experiences doing that in the past that have cost me friendships, so... I guess I still get to work through some other issues first.

There's been more crap rattling around in my head besides all this, but I'm sure this is much too long already. I'll shut up now.