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douglasfir

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Saturday Dec 31, 2005

Dec 31, 2005
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I feel like shouting a big FUCK YOU to the world, trying to convince the puppet-masters that I know my place and I am well and truly beaten, that all hope has long since been bled from me... but sadly I'm too stupid for that to even be true... there's still a little beacon of light burning and the coward in me wishes it would blow out so I could give up because having just enough hope to get through each day is just so fucking hard...

That said if anyone reads this and you buy into the fake sentiment of New Years... Happy New Year! If you don't and you're like me... you'll be in my prayers... but I wouldn't hold your breath on that helping you.

It's all so very wrong
It shouldn't be this way
Incresingly more complicated
Each successive day
fpkk:
Dude, I don't know exactly what it is, or why it happens but 2005 was significantly my worst year ever. I mean it actually was qualitatively much worse than 2004. I'm already getting good vibes of 2006... so hopefully that means things can start to move forward.

I'm pulling for you dude. You deserve better than you seem to have got last year. Hell, we all do.

Here's to a better road ahead than the one behind! smile
Jan 7, 2006
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Jan 8, 2006

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