This one's for hellfairie who mentioned she liked hate-fuelled bile a while ago...
... ha! See I built that up and even though I'm angry I can't spew the bile... I'm more angry at myself... sorry hellfairie maybe another time!
fpkk - your advice was sound and I don't regret the way I approached it this time... but that somehow makes this worse... it's all about me and how I'm somhow perceived by the world..
It would be funny if it wasn't so tragic but to be told in text talk that someone doesn't "c u that way" - is actually pretty amusing!
Was I meant to be sorry that I didn't look good enough
when this is the only face The Gods gave me
If I'd hung around to be The Boys About Town
Would I have left with more than I've seen lately?
When the wind's changed, I stayed just the same
Still in the blink of an eye
It's been my way to get through my days
with no backing out or denials
Aaaah you coulda stood up for me
Yeah you coulda held out for me
Haaaaah coulda been somebody strong
Was I meant to be worried that I wasn't picked for the team
when the rules you played was made for you only
So I laid down, took my kicking around
And came back up with twice the good The Gods gave me
When the wind's changed, I stayed just the same
Still in the blink of an eye
It's been my way to get through my days
with no backing out or denials
Aaaah you coulda stood up for me
Yeah you coulda held out for me
Haaaaah coulda been somebody strong
It is nothing to do with you! It is other people! She doesn't want you to be upset if things don't work out! She knows what a big, sensitive, cuddly toy you are and the last thing she wants is to be responsible for hurting you! (Text is never, ever, never permissible but likely she was just caught out.)
Either a) pick yourself up and keep going because NOW, right now, right this VERY MOMENT is when you can make some progress, right when it hurts.
or b) don't there's no law that says you have to keep going and if you don't feel the stomach for a) this is cool too. Just leave the whole thing to cool off like a hot potato. Angrily saying 'to hell with all of it women are evil!' would help too! Just as a temporary measure.
And remember I'm around. Now let's get you stood up and dusted off and ready to face off what's next. You want a break come down here and I'll buy you a frigging beer and we can lech at rock chicks in the purple turtle. Genuine.
And I never hit on a girl in a bar ever. The secret of my success? Internet dating of all things. It's a good thing overall. I am far more a personality than a looks guy and I can't judge that by looking.
To be fair, you sound better already.