Attention! This is going to blunt and honest, and I don't care..these are the random thoughts going through my head these past couple of days....
Why am I here? Really. I have tried to figure this out since I've been here, and I keep coming to the same conclusion...dishwasher, babysitter, laundry gal, chef, hooka, driver home person.....
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!
Why did I leave home again? Supposedly to be with my true love? Ho w romantic is that? Yeah, right, hardly....
Since I'm in a bitchy ass mood, let's break down the senarios...
When's dinner?
Babe, can you fix me a plate of food?
I'm tired...I'm so sore, oh....... how was your day?
Hey, I noticed when I was taking my work clothes out of the dryer, that it was full, you really shouldn't make it that full... (do it your fucking self then)
Your cooking is acttually really good (my 2 cents..I will brag.. I cook awesome), but maybe not so much garlic....
(I cooked Mexican Lasagna the other night which included corn tortillas with yummy refried beans spread on them, layered with shit tons of cheese, taco seasoned hamburger and onions and hot rotel, keep layering until the top, which is hot hot sauce and lotsof cheese, top that with either the sour cream or guac that I served and you are good to go)
I swear..they cook so bland up here.
Anyway, I got off topic...
You know those stupid quizzes that everyone fills out even they don't want to?
my sister's answer to a question...If you could give me anything what would it be? A MAN THAT YOU LIKE, IS ATTRACTIVE, AND ACTUALLY FITS YOUR PERSONALITY.
I love my sister.
WAIT! THERE'S MORE! I'M NOT DONE BITCHING!
So, I feel like I've been tricked...meaning he did all that was necessary to get me up here......................then...........nothing..........
We are gonna get really honest now.....probably too honest...
Sex.....Helllo?? Helllo???
Was great when he was trying to win me over ...hmmm...wha happen?
Really...an almost 30 yr old man should listen to his woman when she tells him EXACTLY what she wants.
Don't get me wrong, I won't use the term selfish, because I don't really think that's what he's doing...he just doesn't listen or doesn't get it.
That sucks....because as a woman, I prolly have a higher sex drive than most men....
Most of y'all don't know me well...but I can drink. He can't. CAN'T.
The whole time I've been down here, I've matched him drink for drink, and I always come out on top.
I'M the one driving home EVERY fudking time.
Fine, whatever, but I'm tired of babysitting...
For example, tonight , we had & beers exactly the same, about 3 shots each, and Mac, this great bartender, made me a shot of dirty martini, just cause he overheard me saying I love them...
oh, I had one more beer....another red headed slut...and guess who drove home? Guess who was actually sober? No buzz..a little warm..that's it.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhh
This is a LOOOOOONNNNNGGGGGG post, but I can't help it.
Sorry, people, but i have to vent....
My friend is getting me a ticket home in a couple of weeks....I am beside myself... I want to visit so bad.
Call me sappy, call me stupid, call me a hopeless romantic....cuz I am all of the above....I really thought it would be different.
Why am I here? Really. I have tried to figure this out since I've been here, and I keep coming to the same conclusion...dishwasher, babysitter, laundry gal, chef, hooka, driver home person.....
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!
Why did I leave home again? Supposedly to be with my true love? Ho w romantic is that? Yeah, right, hardly....
Since I'm in a bitchy ass mood, let's break down the senarios...
When's dinner?
Babe, can you fix me a plate of food?
I'm tired...I'm so sore, oh....... how was your day?
Hey, I noticed when I was taking my work clothes out of the dryer, that it was full, you really shouldn't make it that full... (do it your fucking self then)
Your cooking is acttually really good (my 2 cents..I will brag.. I cook awesome), but maybe not so much garlic....
(I cooked Mexican Lasagna the other night which included corn tortillas with yummy refried beans spread on them, layered with shit tons of cheese, taco seasoned hamburger and onions and hot rotel, keep layering until the top, which is hot hot sauce and lotsof cheese, top that with either the sour cream or guac that I served and you are good to go)
I swear..they cook so bland up here.
Anyway, I got off topic...
You know those stupid quizzes that everyone fills out even they don't want to?
my sister's answer to a question...If you could give me anything what would it be? A MAN THAT YOU LIKE, IS ATTRACTIVE, AND ACTUALLY FITS YOUR PERSONALITY.
I love my sister.
WAIT! THERE'S MORE! I'M NOT DONE BITCHING!
So, I feel like I've been tricked...meaning he did all that was necessary to get me up here......................then...........nothing..........
We are gonna get really honest now.....probably too honest...
Sex.....Helllo?? Helllo???
Was great when he was trying to win me over ...hmmm...wha happen?
Really...an almost 30 yr old man should listen to his woman when she tells him EXACTLY what she wants.
Don't get me wrong, I won't use the term selfish, because I don't really think that's what he's doing...he just doesn't listen or doesn't get it.
That sucks....because as a woman, I prolly have a higher sex drive than most men....
Most of y'all don't know me well...but I can drink. He can't. CAN'T.
The whole time I've been down here, I've matched him drink for drink, and I always come out on top.
I'M the one driving home EVERY fudking time.
Fine, whatever, but I'm tired of babysitting...
For example, tonight , we had & beers exactly the same, about 3 shots each, and Mac, this great bartender, made me a shot of dirty martini, just cause he overheard me saying I love them...
oh, I had one more beer....another red headed slut...and guess who drove home? Guess who was actually sober? No buzz..a little warm..that's it.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhh
This is a LOOOOOONNNNNGGGGGG post, but I can't help it.
Sorry, people, but i have to vent....
My friend is getting me a ticket home in a couple of weeks....I am beside myself... I want to visit so bad.
Call me sappy, call me stupid, call me a hopeless romantic....cuz I am all of the above....I really thought it would be different.
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Noah is dead on about the resentment thing. It is such an easy thing to slip into with the ones that you love the most.
I got to go but, I hope to see you soon and talk to you later. Love ya-Jenn