Hey there, gonna start out a little depressing at first, but I guarantee there's a point to all this.
I woke up this morning a bit sad due to the content of my dreams.
Last night I was a master jewel thief! The best at my game. To run from the cops my escape was always freerunning across Paris. (Granted I've never been to Paris, so this was probably a mash up of movie sets)
I loved it! It was so exciting!
But then I woke up, haha.
A bit of back-story. When I was thirteen I injured my left knee playing soccer. Over the next few years I went through several surgeries to try and fix the damage. Basically the problem was that my knee-cap would dislocate easily, and extremely frequently. If you've never experienced that...god damn it hurts! And you go down like a sack of potatos.
The surgeries helped for about six months, until it dislocated again, and now it's worse than ever before. My knee dislocates every time I run...period. And even if I wear a brace to keep it all together, I still can't run like a normal person. My knee locks halfway through the motion so I can't cushion the impact of running. Therefore I can't go faster than a jog and I'll always always always have the limp.
I already have really bad arthritis so it's always in pain. Can't even wear heels for more than an hour without wanting to scream in agony
The surgeons I've talked to say there's nothing I can do at this point, and that I should expect a full knee replacement by the time I'm forty. swell.
So I didn't write this just to bitch...like I said, there's a point.
Back to the dream. The one thing Ive always wanted more than anything else is to learn to Parkour. Seriously numero uno on my to do list. But as the years pass, I've realized this will never be a possibility for me. My knee just won't handle it, and I'd end up hurting myself far worse.
I've missed out on so much because of my stupid knee injury.
I didn't get to play tennis in highschool, didn't get that gorgeous letterman's jacket, I can't go to live shows because I fear roaring crowds (if my knee goes out in the middle of that, I'm fucked), I can't ski anymore, I can't go running with my dog, I'll never again know that freeing feeling of breaking into a full sprint on a lonely beach, and of course I can never learn to parkour.
I guess I've come to grips with it...well mostly. I've stopped crying about it at least.
I tell you this because I don't want you to miss out. We only live once, and I've lost so many opportunities because of an unfortunate injury.
Don't take your legs for granted!! Most people do and it drives me nuts! Jump on a trampoline, go play a sport, run around on the beach. Do what you want to do...do it now! Why put it off? You never know when something will happen and you'll regret not taking all the chances you had.
Learn to dance, go for a hike, climb a rockwall, roller-skate, play tennis with a friend, go horse-back riding, give a kid a piggy-back ride....
Mostly things you'd overlook, but trust me...you'll miss them when they're gone.
Sorry for the rant. Just enjoy your life! I had to tell someone..even if it's just one person.
<3 Doona
I woke up this morning a bit sad due to the content of my dreams.
Last night I was a master jewel thief! The best at my game. To run from the cops my escape was always freerunning across Paris. (Granted I've never been to Paris, so this was probably a mash up of movie sets)
I loved it! It was so exciting!
But then I woke up, haha.
A bit of back-story. When I was thirteen I injured my left knee playing soccer. Over the next few years I went through several surgeries to try and fix the damage. Basically the problem was that my knee-cap would dislocate easily, and extremely frequently. If you've never experienced that...god damn it hurts! And you go down like a sack of potatos.
The surgeries helped for about six months, until it dislocated again, and now it's worse than ever before. My knee dislocates every time I run...period. And even if I wear a brace to keep it all together, I still can't run like a normal person. My knee locks halfway through the motion so I can't cushion the impact of running. Therefore I can't go faster than a jog and I'll always always always have the limp.
I already have really bad arthritis so it's always in pain. Can't even wear heels for more than an hour without wanting to scream in agony
The surgeons I've talked to say there's nothing I can do at this point, and that I should expect a full knee replacement by the time I'm forty. swell.
So I didn't write this just to bitch...like I said, there's a point.
Back to the dream. The one thing Ive always wanted more than anything else is to learn to Parkour. Seriously numero uno on my to do list. But as the years pass, I've realized this will never be a possibility for me. My knee just won't handle it, and I'd end up hurting myself far worse.
I've missed out on so much because of my stupid knee injury.
I didn't get to play tennis in highschool, didn't get that gorgeous letterman's jacket, I can't go to live shows because I fear roaring crowds (if my knee goes out in the middle of that, I'm fucked), I can't ski anymore, I can't go running with my dog, I'll never again know that freeing feeling of breaking into a full sprint on a lonely beach, and of course I can never learn to parkour.
I guess I've come to grips with it...well mostly. I've stopped crying about it at least.
I tell you this because I don't want you to miss out. We only live once, and I've lost so many opportunities because of an unfortunate injury.
Don't take your legs for granted!! Most people do and it drives me nuts! Jump on a trampoline, go play a sport, run around on the beach. Do what you want to do...do it now! Why put it off? You never know when something will happen and you'll regret not taking all the chances you had.
Learn to dance, go for a hike, climb a rockwall, roller-skate, play tennis with a friend, go horse-back riding, give a kid a piggy-back ride....
Mostly things you'd overlook, but trust me...you'll miss them when they're gone.
Sorry for the rant. Just enjoy your life! I had to tell someone..even if it's just one person.
<3 Doona
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swr1732:
A really good message. You can never take anything for granted because you never know when it will be gone. I have had quite a few friends get seriously injured doing things that they love, things that most people would never even consider doing. After talking with a them about their situations none of them regret it because even in their injured state they are still doing what they can to the best of their ability and that's all that we can ask for. Try not to get to down on yourself and never stop dreaming! You never know what you might be capable of! 
suprabellua:
That's really awesome, i wish i had such a strong outlook on life. when shit goes down i'm normally the first to call it quits. glad to see that some people can see through the darkness 