Wow, I didn't realize it's been a month since I posted something. I've been so busy running around like a nutbag that I lost touch of how many days there are in a week!
Let's see... I lost my god damn phone today. I always fantasize the cell phone free life, but this timing sucks balls since I finally got some good leads for work and need to make/expecting important calls. FML
So, I'm not quitting the tattoo apprenticeship after all. I knew it was going to be hard and the idea of quitting wasn't even gonna be an option, but I think the mistake I made was overestimating my perseverance. Perseverance over being talked to like a moron, putting up with sexist attitudes, not knowing what the fuck is going on, getting yelled at for fucking up because nobody ever told me what I'm supposed to do, etc.
But I guess that's the objective; for my ego and dignity to get stripped to zero, so I can learn to be stronger, more patient, and have a thicker skin. At least that is my perception, or perhaps a justification I give to this situation. I don't know. Any apprentice out there wanna lend me their opinion? (Since I can't join the "Apprentice" group for some reason.)
Anyway, frustrations aside, I also got some positive things going, got a job painting a mural for a Middle Eastern restaurant, which is gonna be one of the biggest challenges to date since it's a 53 ft wall and I've only done this once in my life. A friend who is a bartender is training me how to work the bar, so I can start looking for a job as a bartender. Met one of my neighbors, who will give me jobs doing transcriptions for his company. Also, been meeting random people that could need me to do some freelance work in the future.
Life is fuckin' crazy. I'm using my best judgement taking in all the lessons that are being thrown at me. I think I'm doing pretty good considering that I do feel like I'm growing each day getting through the tasks and emotional "humps" at hands. And mostly learning about who I am, or rather, learning how to be who I am against the world.
Last but not least, my hair was red for a minute.
Let's see... I lost my god damn phone today. I always fantasize the cell phone free life, but this timing sucks balls since I finally got some good leads for work and need to make/expecting important calls. FML
So, I'm not quitting the tattoo apprenticeship after all. I knew it was going to be hard and the idea of quitting wasn't even gonna be an option, but I think the mistake I made was overestimating my perseverance. Perseverance over being talked to like a moron, putting up with sexist attitudes, not knowing what the fuck is going on, getting yelled at for fucking up because nobody ever told me what I'm supposed to do, etc.
But I guess that's the objective; for my ego and dignity to get stripped to zero, so I can learn to be stronger, more patient, and have a thicker skin. At least that is my perception, or perhaps a justification I give to this situation. I don't know. Any apprentice out there wanna lend me their opinion? (Since I can't join the "Apprentice" group for some reason.)
Anyway, frustrations aside, I also got some positive things going, got a job painting a mural for a Middle Eastern restaurant, which is gonna be one of the biggest challenges to date since it's a 53 ft wall and I've only done this once in my life. A friend who is a bartender is training me how to work the bar, so I can start looking for a job as a bartender. Met one of my neighbors, who will give me jobs doing transcriptions for his company. Also, been meeting random people that could need me to do some freelance work in the future.
Life is fuckin' crazy. I'm using my best judgement taking in all the lessons that are being thrown at me. I think I'm doing pretty good considering that I do feel like I'm growing each day getting through the tasks and emotional "humps" at hands. And mostly learning about who I am, or rather, learning how to be who I am against the world.
Last but not least, my hair was red for a minute.
No, sooner than that.