Finally got some sleep that I have been missing for a long time, and I am somewhat sober. All the medications given to me from surgery really scewed me up. Apparently I don't do well with morphine. So now that they took me off of it I feel better. Still on a bunch of shit though. Sometimes I wish I wasn't on any of it at all, but I know that things would really suck if I wasn't. And to think that I might have to go back....
Well...shit, so I am not such a cheery fellow. Wouldn't say that my life is nothing but a bucket of shit;however, there are times I would question that notion. I just don't know what to do with myself, nor do I know why I think the way I do sometimes. But I do see alot of light in things. And there are somethings that make me forget all my woes. That tends to be good friends, which I am severly lacking. Usually I am down when I am confused by every aspect of my life, or lack of a life...no biggie. But it tends to be when I seclude myself from the rest of the world and aim to fly in the clouds by some means. I'm working on that though. Bleh, but anyway...doing better.
Started on my chainmaille again...but it's funny. Since my surgery I can barely lift the damn thing when before I had no problem. 14 gage galvanized steel euopean 4n1 double mesh 5/16" weave...it's a wee bit heavy due to the double weave (sometimes referred to as king's maille...atleast from the research I saw). Probably not the wisest of ways to make maille I attend to wear during renn season considering my fusion...but I am stubborn and hope to be in better condition come next summer. hehe, lost enough wieght to wear my old suit of leather/plate, so I always have that going...freaking meds and wieght-gain...though being lazy doen't help. Finally found a med that stops the shaking too, so I am starting to get back into drawing. Already have a draft from my next tat. once i get a scanner I'll post it and a few others.
Well...shit, so I am not such a cheery fellow. Wouldn't say that my life is nothing but a bucket of shit;however, there are times I would question that notion. I just don't know what to do with myself, nor do I know why I think the way I do sometimes. But I do see alot of light in things. And there are somethings that make me forget all my woes. That tends to be good friends, which I am severly lacking. Usually I am down when I am confused by every aspect of my life, or lack of a life...no biggie. But it tends to be when I seclude myself from the rest of the world and aim to fly in the clouds by some means. I'm working on that though. Bleh, but anyway...doing better.
Started on my chainmaille again...but it's funny. Since my surgery I can barely lift the damn thing when before I had no problem. 14 gage galvanized steel euopean 4n1 double mesh 5/16" weave...it's a wee bit heavy due to the double weave (sometimes referred to as king's maille...atleast from the research I saw). Probably not the wisest of ways to make maille I attend to wear during renn season considering my fusion...but I am stubborn and hope to be in better condition come next summer. hehe, lost enough wieght to wear my old suit of leather/plate, so I always have that going...freaking meds and wieght-gain...though being lazy doen't help. Finally found a med that stops the shaking too, so I am starting to get back into drawing. Already have a draft from my next tat. once i get a scanner I'll post it and a few others.