Another sappy journal entry...
"I would fight the KISS Army for you." Eventually, I want to say that to [redacted]. It will serve two purposes. First, it will make her laugh. Secondly, it will serve to communicate how I feel about her.
I drove over to her church, [redacted] in the city, and I checked the sign for serice times and whatnot. I had tried calling them, but the number I had wasn't working. So I went over there. I got some strange looks when I was walking down the street (this is just north of the River District, which is what we call out downtown area. I *heart* the River District). I was wearing a woll Swiss military overcoat, circa WW2, my black eyeliner, and some orange hair glue.
So, I am not a fan of Christianity. I think that it is rather unhealthy, because of my own experiences with it. I am bipolar, so I deal with depression a lot. I always thought that depression was a sin because of what I had been taught in my church. I thought that I was doing something wrong. I was so ashamed of it that I told no one that I dealt with it., and that ended up fuelling more depression. I seriously conremplated suicide while I was Christian five different times that I can remember, and I had been Christian for only four years. That tells me that there is something wrong with the way that fundamentalists (at least) view depression. I remember one sermon where the pastor was decrying the fact that so many people are on antidepressants. I will be the first to admit that some psychological disorders (like ADHD) are overdiagnosed, but there are a lot of people out there who suffer from bipolar and unipolar depression, and we need to be medicated in order to control our illnesses. It isn't an issue of "the Devil" fucking with us. It's a chemical imbalance in the brain.
Anyhow, Christianity was pretty healhy for her, so I guess it can't be as bad as I make it out to be. She used to be addicted to all sorts of drugs, and Christianity has helped her to get clean. She isn't one of those fundie Christians, though. She jokes about the same things that I joke about, like sex. She talks openly about sex, and she's bisexual. ther are some fundies that go to my college. One guy had a conniption fit because I said, "Jesus fucking Christ".
So, yeah, I'll be going to her church for their Sunday school thing and I'll go for the services. that is, if I don't burst into flames upon entering the building, or asked to leave because of my appearance (I plan on coming as I am, which means I'll be wearing the eyeliner). I think that, after services are done there, I'll visit my old church...
"I would fight the KISS Army for you." Eventually, I want to say that to [redacted]. It will serve two purposes. First, it will make her laugh. Secondly, it will serve to communicate how I feel about her.
I drove over to her church, [redacted] in the city, and I checked the sign for serice times and whatnot. I had tried calling them, but the number I had wasn't working. So I went over there. I got some strange looks when I was walking down the street (this is just north of the River District, which is what we call out downtown area. I *heart* the River District). I was wearing a woll Swiss military overcoat, circa WW2, my black eyeliner, and some orange hair glue.
So, I am not a fan of Christianity. I think that it is rather unhealthy, because of my own experiences with it. I am bipolar, so I deal with depression a lot. I always thought that depression was a sin because of what I had been taught in my church. I thought that I was doing something wrong. I was so ashamed of it that I told no one that I dealt with it., and that ended up fuelling more depression. I seriously conremplated suicide while I was Christian five different times that I can remember, and I had been Christian for only four years. That tells me that there is something wrong with the way that fundamentalists (at least) view depression. I remember one sermon where the pastor was decrying the fact that so many people are on antidepressants. I will be the first to admit that some psychological disorders (like ADHD) are overdiagnosed, but there are a lot of people out there who suffer from bipolar and unipolar depression, and we need to be medicated in order to control our illnesses. It isn't an issue of "the Devil" fucking with us. It's a chemical imbalance in the brain.
Anyhow, Christianity was pretty healhy for her, so I guess it can't be as bad as I make it out to be. She used to be addicted to all sorts of drugs, and Christianity has helped her to get clean. She isn't one of those fundie Christians, though. She jokes about the same things that I joke about, like sex. She talks openly about sex, and she's bisexual. ther are some fundies that go to my college. One guy had a conniption fit because I said, "Jesus fucking Christ".
So, yeah, I'll be going to her church for their Sunday school thing and I'll go for the services. that is, if I don't burst into flames upon entering the building, or asked to leave because of my appearance (I plan on coming as I am, which means I'll be wearing the eyeliner). I think that, after services are done there, I'll visit my old church...