That's Michael and I.
'Cept I don't have green eyes, no red hair, I have huge knockers and brown skin.
He looks exactly like that 'cept he has blue eyes and wears glasses.
LOL
He has the hots for me ya know.
This will be the longest week ever.
I just wanna feel him next to me. That's all.
Derek is a sweetie pie.
I'm gonna need me some botox to kill the laugh lines.
In 7 days I was suppose to get hitched in this beautiful A-line gown. Very simple yet damn elegant. I can still picture it. But my hair wouldn't have been long enough as I had imagined a couple of months back. Shit, how funny things change.
I would be over in England who relied on someone who back then cared and live happily ever after. Party all day and night and be a Mrs.
For some idiotic reason, I always wanted to belong to someone. This should've been set for me. And onto the next step. The way I had envisioned it. I pictured myself as one heck of a housewife,a mum then with a great career doing something I loved and being foreign, which meant awhole new beginning for me... talk about sacrifice with the added downfall of not having my family/friends there. But for love I was willing to do what I had to do to be with the man that I loved. I was lucky to have his family accept me as well as his friends, who oddly enough I miss dearly because of how nice and open minded they were about us. I don't have any bitter feelings towards them, just the one person who wanted his way or no way. I had my faults but know I tried and my efforts were extreme. Maybe some day, that 1 person will take notice and seize me. I know I can make someone very happy if he is willing to do the same for me.
It's simple.
I suppose things happened the way it did for a reason. Wasn't suppose to happen to me cause it was perfect. That proved to me that nothing is. So now, I can't afford to take nothing for granted. Just hope things finally work and moves us on forward to even better things. My senses and heart are in it. That's enough to have me going in the right direction.
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dollbabyamy:
Maybe things didn't work out with you and your english man so things can truly be perfect in every single way with you and your new man.
bleakronin:
I think a "don't look back" philosophy should be used here. Don't kill yourself trying figure out why things went arwy with past relationships cause it will only mess you up more and screw stuff up with your current. This one sounds better for you anyways. Much fortune sent your way. 