Last Sunday I woke up from a Horrific Nightmare. I had a really vivid picture of the watch my Ex bought me when we first stated dating, being completely broken. Even in the dream I felt a great sadness rushing through me.
After I woke up, I couldn't shake that feeling of complete despair.
However, these last couple of days I feel like I've moved on leaps and bounds. I feel awesome. I've come to appreciate that I have whole new life now, a clean start and though I will always love her, she's gone. Also, its her loss, if she'd just let herself enjoy our time together things would be different right now (long story). Furthermore, I felt as though all my current goals and accomplishments where all a way of getting either back at her or getting her back. Now I don't give a fig! I'm enjoying myself, even if it's subconsciously a means to something?
Anyway, My new years resolution is still going strong. I'm not drinking as much as a I used to, and I've lost over a stone and a half in body fat since January. I've taken up Commando Krav Maga and will soon be joining a Mixed Martial Arts club. On a Wednesday, I sneak out of my house to do secret Singing lessons, I'm currently singing 'Somewhere over the Rainbow'. Neat er?
I've also started a Warhammer 40K Dark Angel army and I had so much fun with my Dermal drill yesterday (I made a book holder from Scratch) that I'm going to start making marionettes next month.
My own animation Artwork is going slow, but I'm enjoying the time away from it to pursue other interests. The music Video I'm currently making, the deadline keeps extending, so I'm good for time. I do believe I need to do more though, both drawing and animating. but that's the only downturn in my life.
High five?
I'll end this Blog post with a quote from the Hagakure:
A person who is said to be proficient at the arts is like a fool. Because of his foolishness in concerning himself with just one thing, he thinks of nothing else and thus becomes proficient. He is a worthless person.
After I woke up, I couldn't shake that feeling of complete despair.
However, these last couple of days I feel like I've moved on leaps and bounds. I feel awesome. I've come to appreciate that I have whole new life now, a clean start and though I will always love her, she's gone. Also, its her loss, if she'd just let herself enjoy our time together things would be different right now (long story). Furthermore, I felt as though all my current goals and accomplishments where all a way of getting either back at her or getting her back. Now I don't give a fig! I'm enjoying myself, even if it's subconsciously a means to something?
Anyway, My new years resolution is still going strong. I'm not drinking as much as a I used to, and I've lost over a stone and a half in body fat since January. I've taken up Commando Krav Maga and will soon be joining a Mixed Martial Arts club. On a Wednesday, I sneak out of my house to do secret Singing lessons, I'm currently singing 'Somewhere over the Rainbow'. Neat er?
I've also started a Warhammer 40K Dark Angel army and I had so much fun with my Dermal drill yesterday (I made a book holder from Scratch) that I'm going to start making marionettes next month.
My own animation Artwork is going slow, but I'm enjoying the time away from it to pursue other interests. The music Video I'm currently making, the deadline keeps extending, so I'm good for time. I do believe I need to do more though, both drawing and animating. but that's the only downturn in my life.
High five?
I'll end this Blog post with a quote from the Hagakure:
A person who is said to be proficient at the arts is like a fool. Because of his foolishness in concerning himself with just one thing, he thinks of nothing else and thus becomes proficient. He is a worthless person.