domitianvs

"I just want to be alone for a while," People say that after someone dumps them very badly. They say it for two reasons; Firstly, because they want to take control of the situation the best they can and suggest that this 'loneliness' they are feeling is some how something they actually wanted. Secondly, because in some Karmic way, they hope by uttering these words they will call upon the same cosmic bad luck that reluctantly ended there last relationship, to magically conjure up a new one because they ' just want to be alone for a while', and as the Rolling Stone saying, "you don't always get what you want"

I uttered those words when I was dumped last October, and now months on, i'm wondering if subconsciously I believe the bullshit that sentence generates. I want to be alone? Fuck no, I want to meet someone new, however I seem to be sabotaging myself by doing nothing. I haven't met a single new person this year so far, and I'm reluctant to leave the house. Instead, I have preoccupied my time by writing, drawing and working out. I may have lost half a stone in 3 weeks, but I haven't gained anything either. Further more, Women are not interested in guys with a sixpack (though it helps) instead they are more interested in guys who are interesting. Currently, i'm not filling that criteria, i don't think so anyway.

In short... I need to get out more. :/