hey guys i tested my sobriety and almost failed!! ill explain:
so i decided 2 finally seperate from my soulmate because his soulmate is pot and alcohol. yeah. anyways i was super depressed but i had a suicide girls party 2 go too. i got lost in sanfrancisco and drove an hr and a half there and drove around there 4 like 2 more hrs. then i get 2 my hotel and find out the room id the size of my kitchen and the t.v. is mounted on my wall. anyways i decided to suck it up and get ready. my friend nora came with her boyfriend and we all went out 2 eat. they reminded me of how goofy carl and i were 2gether so i wasw already kinda down. then we finally get to the party and it was a disaster. everyone was drunk. i was depressed and my friend kinda ditched me. so i gave in and called carl. the so called love of my life. i wanted 2 go home and sleep in his arms were i feel the safest. but low and behold he was drunk. i called him in tears hoping he would rescue my but no.....he was just like everyone else. my heart was crushed. i literally felt the last strand break that was holding it in place. i felt like apart of me died. anyways i walked rite back up stairs grabbed a beer and cracked it open with my teeth!! i started 2 drink it as the tears poured down my face. i stopped and looked at all the smiling faces and realized this wasnt were i wanted 2 b. i left the party. walked 5 blocks and packed my things. i called my friend rob and he told me i did the right thing. i know i did. i have never been prouder of myself. i almost did the easy thing and drowned my feelings....but instead i stayed strong. i left sanfran and drove home. but wait it gets worse. then i called my other ex boyfriend thinking id just run into his arms...because thats what i always do. i can never handle things on my own. well i got 2 his house he was in his jammies. i saw his face...and realized that wasnt were i wanted 2 b either. so i went to my moms where my daughter was. woke my mom up and told her everything. my daughter heard my voice and called out 2 me. i had never been so happy to hear her cry. she was crying "mommy". thats when i knew that was were i was supposed 2 be. right where i was, with my daughter in my arms.
he may have been the man of my dreams but nothing is worth my sobriety. i guess now he can just stay in my dreams. but never again will he lay in my bed while im sleeping.
so i decided 2 finally seperate from my soulmate because his soulmate is pot and alcohol. yeah. anyways i was super depressed but i had a suicide girls party 2 go too. i got lost in sanfrancisco and drove an hr and a half there and drove around there 4 like 2 more hrs. then i get 2 my hotel and find out the room id the size of my kitchen and the t.v. is mounted on my wall. anyways i decided to suck it up and get ready. my friend nora came with her boyfriend and we all went out 2 eat. they reminded me of how goofy carl and i were 2gether so i wasw already kinda down. then we finally get to the party and it was a disaster. everyone was drunk. i was depressed and my friend kinda ditched me. so i gave in and called carl. the so called love of my life. i wanted 2 go home and sleep in his arms were i feel the safest. but low and behold he was drunk. i called him in tears hoping he would rescue my but no.....he was just like everyone else. my heart was crushed. i literally felt the last strand break that was holding it in place. i felt like apart of me died. anyways i walked rite back up stairs grabbed a beer and cracked it open with my teeth!! i started 2 drink it as the tears poured down my face. i stopped and looked at all the smiling faces and realized this wasnt were i wanted 2 b. i left the party. walked 5 blocks and packed my things. i called my friend rob and he told me i did the right thing. i know i did. i have never been prouder of myself. i almost did the easy thing and drowned my feelings....but instead i stayed strong. i left sanfran and drove home. but wait it gets worse. then i called my other ex boyfriend thinking id just run into his arms...because thats what i always do. i can never handle things on my own. well i got 2 his house he was in his jammies. i saw his face...and realized that wasnt were i wanted 2 b either. so i went to my moms where my daughter was. woke my mom up and told her everything. my daughter heard my voice and called out 2 me. i had never been so happy to hear her cry. she was crying "mommy". thats when i knew that was were i was supposed 2 be. right where i was, with my daughter in my arms.
he may have been the man of my dreams but nothing is worth my sobriety. i guess now he can just stay in my dreams. but never again will he lay in my bed while im sleeping.
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