dominica

Ok, I know I talk about this too much....so this entry isnt going to be any different. My bf got home on Sunday then left wednesday. 3 days home...thats it. I'm beginning to hate CA and hate his fucking band. Something I used to love listening too, I now can barely stand to hear the name of. I miss my nephew. I miss my friends. I don't drink so it's not like I'm going ot go out to a bar, maybe I'll just go to a movie. I know there is a lot to do is L.A. and the surrounding area's I just don't know where to start. All the band wives live far away, so I can't hang with them. I wish we had a cool couple to chill with while he was home. I REALLY want a cigarette right now. Good news is that i get to go to Rome on Wednesday. I leave L.A. wednesday morning AT 7, get to NYC at 3, leave nyc at 5 then get to Naples at 7am. At least I get to see my old man then. The USO hired his band to play for the troops, so I get to go to italy, see my bff from germany and eat good food!! Sigh, his schedule sucks cock. Basically he is gone all of june...all fucking summer. I think it will get better once i get a job, i cant find anything i want to do . I have had a job since i was 14. now 3 months i dont have a job. I just dont want to have to hide my tattoos etc. at an office job. Karl is so supportive of me i feel so lucky that someone like that could love me. I'm just so damn lonely. I know girls flirt with him at his shows, i just dont understand skanks sometimes. I don't know how some girlfriends deal with it. I'm not a jealous person, maybe a little but nothing psychotic. No more ranting for me, I'm going to go eat brownies for dinner.
pillows i made....

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the old man and me..

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