sigh, god it feels like forever since I've written. I went home to delaware to visit the family. I don't know if it helped or just made me so sad to come back to CA. I miss them so so much. my nephew is 2 now and looks like he is 4. I feel like I'm missing him grow up. Plus, the fact that i have no friends here doesnt help. I mean i have the bf but he is gone....ALOT. He travels all th etime for his job and i get to go visit sometimes, but it still blows. Oh yeah and I dont have a job I forgot about that. I have worked in marketing/admin since I was 17 and I just wan tto do something more fulfilling now. I dont want to be 60 and look back and realize I spent my whole life trying to make money. i want my friend who lived in germany to come live with us. but she wont leave her husband there!!!!!!


so i'm sorry to hear
things will get better
muah ttyl
........and the dreams go on.......