well i was sitting here thinking(which is never good cause it hurts everytime i do 
) but what i realized was that christmas is like two months away 
i cant belive this year is almost over its crazy 
i just hope next year is better for me then this year was, it sure did have its ups and downs mostly downs which sucks. i woke up in a downer mood this morning and i cant seem to get out of it. it was weird i wanted to cry this morning and i dont even know why. i wish it was last year at this time i had a girlfriend, i had money, i had an ok job, everything was just going really well. then at the start of this year i lost most of it 
i just have to get my life back on track. the thing that sucks is im trying but its just not working. hopefully it will happen soon life owes me big time. heres a couple of questions for you
if you had the chance to go back in time to when your life got fucked up would you want to go and would you change it?
i think i would go and i would change it just to see if it would be better then this but only if i knew how this life was and if i got to pick that would be great but you never know that time could be really bad and maybe this life isnt so bad. i swear the shit that floats in my head can drive me up the wall
i just wish for once fate was on my side. im not a bad person i dont treat people like shit i try everything in my power to make people happy so fate should give me something in return. is that to much to ask. sorry this journal is so down its just my mood well i better get back to work or i will be stuck here forever.
) but what i realized was that christmas is like two months away i cant belive this year is almost over its crazy i just hope next year is better for me then this year was, it sure did have its ups and downs mostly downs which sucks. i woke up in a downer mood this morning and i cant seem to get out of it. it was weird i wanted to cry this morning and i dont even know why. i wish it was last year at this time i had a girlfriend, i had money, i had an ok job, everything was just going really well. then at the start of this year i lost most of it i just have to get my life back on track. the thing that sucks is im trying but its just not working. hopefully it will happen soon life owes me big time. heres a couple of questions for you
if you had the chance to go back in time to when your life got fucked up would you want to go and would you change it?
i think i would go and i would change it just to see if it would be better then this but only if i knew how this life was and if i got to pick that would be great but you never know that time could be really bad and maybe this life isnt so bad. i swear the shit that floats in my head can drive me up the wall
i just wish for once fate was on my side. im not a bad person i dont treat people like shit i try everything in my power to make people happy so fate should give me something in return. is that to much to ask. sorry this journal is so down its just my mood well i better get back to work or i will be stuck here forever.
comczar:
Yeah i know what you mean. if i were to go back into time it would be to the time i started making stupid choices in life of what to do and what not to do. i would have lived a totally different life. but i cant hcange it now and it sucks a lot but it goes up down and up down. hope you feel better. Life oculd be dreadful, but it oculd always be worse i guess. at least your not a parapalegic or locked up or somehting, ya know?