Ego down: gahhhhh, I ran into my Amnesty boy on the way to work today while he was standing around the metro looking for donors, AND, like an idiot I didnt say anything -- anything suave that is...just the simple chit chat, laughs, smiles, small talk, and then i had to run away to work -- and of course I don't expect him to say anything becuase he's on the job and probably won't want to look like a douche. I really hope to cross paths with him again, now that I've mustered up the courage to say something. Bah, he's way too adorable to be single...and in any case, today I looked like garbage.
Ego down again: Oh, and I found out that the other boy I had my eye on is gay. Though I'm not surprised because I got hte impression...was more or less subtley in denial...and I was just hoping that if he was bi, maybe things would have worked? Bah again...
Ego up - a man shly called me beautiful on the metro yestereday morning. Made my day
Ego up again -- I was asked to be a model for my painter friend...so apparently this may include a bus trip to Saint Sauveur where I we can get down to bizz. Kind of excited, kind of nervous, on account of the fact that I forgot to ask whether it was nude or not...which I'm assuming it probably is...this should be interesting.
In other news, my friend called from Toronto yesterday and he's doing great -- very happy w/ the way things wre going. We hadn't talked in a couple months, and he's now going to move in with his girlfirend, so things seem to be going really well for him, and his spirits sound much better.
Man...I still remember the sunniest day in July, helping him pack his things and running down the street taking photos of him portaging his canoe to the waterfront. I sat on that dock and watched him paddle away until I couldn't see him anymore.
Ah memories...time passes to quickly. It's been a very busy year....
I've also decided that I'm defintely probably going to be here come September. If I do go to the Netherlands it will be in one year from now for spring semester but apparently the competition is getting high. Who knows; I'll be more established here by then and may even want to stay....either way, it's way more probable I can go to Shambhala now and am already in the works of recruiting a full group from Teebs to venture out west.
...one thing about me, I always need something to look forward to...otherwise forget about it...
Crazy as it may sound, I'm just waiting for someone to come over and smash all of my hopes, goals and dreams. I've gotta be repremanded sometime, on account of hte smile overload in the past ___ months.
Ego down again: Oh, and I found out that the other boy I had my eye on is gay. Though I'm not surprised because I got hte impression...was more or less subtley in denial...and I was just hoping that if he was bi, maybe things would have worked? Bah again...
Ego up - a man shly called me beautiful on the metro yestereday morning. Made my day
Ego up again -- I was asked to be a model for my painter friend...so apparently this may include a bus trip to Saint Sauveur where I we can get down to bizz. Kind of excited, kind of nervous, on account of the fact that I forgot to ask whether it was nude or not...which I'm assuming it probably is...this should be interesting.
In other news, my friend called from Toronto yesterday and he's doing great -- very happy w/ the way things wre going. We hadn't talked in a couple months, and he's now going to move in with his girlfirend, so things seem to be going really well for him, and his spirits sound much better.
Man...I still remember the sunniest day in July, helping him pack his things and running down the street taking photos of him portaging his canoe to the waterfront. I sat on that dock and watched him paddle away until I couldn't see him anymore.
Ah memories...time passes to quickly. It's been a very busy year....
I've also decided that I'm defintely probably going to be here come September. If I do go to the Netherlands it will be in one year from now for spring semester but apparently the competition is getting high. Who knows; I'll be more established here by then and may even want to stay....either way, it's way more probable I can go to Shambhala now and am already in the works of recruiting a full group from Teebs to venture out west.
...one thing about me, I always need something to look forward to...otherwise forget about it...
Crazy as it may sound, I'm just waiting for someone to come over and smash all of my hopes, goals and dreams. I've gotta be repremanded sometime, on account of hte smile overload in the past ___ months.