So I've been running around mostly today, trying to figure out which universities I should apply to...I REALLY hope I get into at least one...just the thought of staying here an extra year makes me wanna cry...I think I just have to get outside -outside of Ontario that is -- and meet new people, see different things, learn more, do more, just take in more of life pretty much. I'm so desperately seeking people with common interests and hopefully someone to encourage me to get more involved and motivated...
I was thinking last night, chatting with a great friend, about doing stuff in life and how I'm only 20 but feel like I have NO time. I really don't! I told him, y'know "I have only one motivation in life, and that's that I am going to die."
I don't know when, but I will at some point and it'll be too soon...so maybe making something out of life might be a good idea...
There's literally a few hundred things I want to do in this lifetime, and I feel the restrictions are way too high, so I have to get moving NOW, and not waste any time...I've been told I'm still young and all that, but sitting around here writing about crap at Lakehead just can't cut it for me...
...I really feel like climbing something right now...preferably some sort of tree...
And of course I'm feeling so sure of getting into a unversity somewhere else that I think it will happen, but this past year has taught me one important thing (out of several) , and that's to never get your hopes up, or expect anything extraordinary...I really wish I dind't have to think so pessimistically, but I've been through a lot of emotional turmoil the past while...thinking the worst is just how it became anyway.
I was supposed to go on a riding lesson today, and couldn;t...which made me sad....I go riding with Cory's mom a lot, we have such an awesome time!! She got me into the whole horseback riding thing and I friggin love it to the point where I hope to ride throughout my entire life...But of course, Sheila put it off...again...and kept postponing things...I thought instructors wanted to keep their students?! It's getting really frusterating, especially since she's been talking about going for a trail ride and today its like 6 degrees above zero...PERFECT.
Alright, I think my work here is done...
I was thinking last night, chatting with a great friend, about doing stuff in life and how I'm only 20 but feel like I have NO time. I really don't! I told him, y'know "I have only one motivation in life, and that's that I am going to die."
I don't know when, but I will at some point and it'll be too soon...so maybe making something out of life might be a good idea...
There's literally a few hundred things I want to do in this lifetime, and I feel the restrictions are way too high, so I have to get moving NOW, and not waste any time...I've been told I'm still young and all that, but sitting around here writing about crap at Lakehead just can't cut it for me...
...I really feel like climbing something right now...preferably some sort of tree...
And of course I'm feeling so sure of getting into a unversity somewhere else that I think it will happen, but this past year has taught me one important thing (out of several) , and that's to never get your hopes up, or expect anything extraordinary...I really wish I dind't have to think so pessimistically, but I've been through a lot of emotional turmoil the past while...thinking the worst is just how it became anyway.
I was supposed to go on a riding lesson today, and couldn;t...which made me sad....I go riding with Cory's mom a lot, we have such an awesome time!! She got me into the whole horseback riding thing and I friggin love it to the point where I hope to ride throughout my entire life...But of course, Sheila put it off...again...and kept postponing things...I thought instructors wanted to keep their students?! It's getting really frusterating, especially since she's been talking about going for a trail ride and today its like 6 degrees above zero...PERFECT.
Alright, I think my work here is done...