It's hard to feel like I don't constantly ruin everyone's lives. I do know how to ruin a moment. I hate it when people won't let me take it back when they know i can't control myself. And I don't do things on purpose. It's a mental issue. And I always feel like nobody understands that. They just act like I'm a total asshole. I don't mean to do things. I mean well. I'm just a giant ball of stress. And I fear it won't ever go away. And I'm destined to drive people away.
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