*sniffle*
Well it's finally happening.. I've been feeling off for a week or two, not being able to wake up in the morning and such, and now I'm finally getting the sniffles.
I felt awful at work. Why oh why when it's cold already do they insist on putting the air con on full blast when I have a vent in the floor behind me? My hands are always warm except when I'm ill, and today my fingers were freezing and I had a temperature. Still, atleast it's the weekend.. To be entirely honest if I could be genuinely sick and get a doctors note I'd put up with a touch of flu for some time off. That's how much I think of that place at the moment.
A management course came up, I haven't seen one in the 3 years I've been there and a few months ago I'd have jumped at the chance to write up an application. But I sat there, wrote two lines and couldn't find any enthusiasm to carry on so I left it. The deadline has passed now and I thought I'd be regretting it, but I really don't. It's awful because when I started I had such drive and ambition to develop and further myself, but now.. Nothing. I feel really empty. I think as much as I shrug it off, I'm still getting over the demotion. It's crazy because it's been a few months but I still feel gutted. I feel like I lost a little piece of me when I lost that job, like the little piece that kept me going and gave me a little hope that I could be good at something. I hope I'll get it back soon, I'm feeling a little lost and I don't feel like I can really talk to anyone about it because I just sound miserable. Oh well.
So it's Friday night and I'm broke and spending a night in on my lonesome. I have spicy lentil soup, painkillers, a big snug bed, and The Shining on TV. I'd like cuddles, kisses, and someone to stroke my hair.. But no such luck. But we can't have what we want all the time, huh.
Well it's finally happening.. I've been feeling off for a week or two, not being able to wake up in the morning and such, and now I'm finally getting the sniffles.
I felt awful at work. Why oh why when it's cold already do they insist on putting the air con on full blast when I have a vent in the floor behind me? My hands are always warm except when I'm ill, and today my fingers were freezing and I had a temperature. Still, atleast it's the weekend.. To be entirely honest if I could be genuinely sick and get a doctors note I'd put up with a touch of flu for some time off. That's how much I think of that place at the moment.
A management course came up, I haven't seen one in the 3 years I've been there and a few months ago I'd have jumped at the chance to write up an application. But I sat there, wrote two lines and couldn't find any enthusiasm to carry on so I left it. The deadline has passed now and I thought I'd be regretting it, but I really don't. It's awful because when I started I had such drive and ambition to develop and further myself, but now.. Nothing. I feel really empty. I think as much as I shrug it off, I'm still getting over the demotion. It's crazy because it's been a few months but I still feel gutted. I feel like I lost a little piece of me when I lost that job, like the little piece that kept me going and gave me a little hope that I could be good at something. I hope I'll get it back soon, I'm feeling a little lost and I don't feel like I can really talk to anyone about it because I just sound miserable. Oh well.
So it's Friday night and I'm broke and spending a night in on my lonesome. I have spicy lentil soup, painkillers, a big snug bed, and The Shining on TV. I'd like cuddles, kisses, and someone to stroke my hair.. But no such luck. But we can't have what we want all the time, huh.
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ginawa:
Feeling better yet?
ginawa:
Doing alright, I think I am sick myself. Not used to being single. Gets lonely even with a roommate. Oh well, that is why god created beer 