Hello lovelies!
TODAY...
was such a gorgeous day! Normally, I don't mind going into work during the day and having my evenings off, but today was just excruciating to sit at work. It was bright, sunny, and warm- and sitting behind the old black and white closed circuit TV's all day just didn't cut it. I wanted to go play at the park, run on the track...something...*sigh* On top of everything else, my sweetie was going to go out to the gun range to shoot his gorgeous new Sig Saur 228- which made me green with jealousy...but...he decided to stay home and sleep.
PEOPLE WHO STEAL WHEN I'M ON MY LUNCH BREAK...
piss me off. When I leave and there is NO one even remotely suspicious in my store, I would like for it to stay that way for the 30 minutes I'm gone. But NO...I come back to two locked fitting rooms with empty cologne boxes stuck inside and two girls with backpacks that are known shoplifters walking out into the mall. Did they have the merchandise? You bet your ass...but I couldnt' stop them because I didn't have concrete proof. it sucks.
DAY NUMBER 1 OF PINING AWAY...
just kidding. I love him more than anything, but I'm not that bad...like I said, just wait till about Thursday or so.
MYSPACE.COM...
is just as addictive as SG, but without the beautiful ladies to look at when I can't type anymore. I have only five friends on their so far- people I went to hs. or college with mostly, but I still find it pretty interesting. Are you on myspace and would like to find me? My profile name is Amy.
CANDICE DeLONG...
is a retired FBI agent whose book I am currently reading. This chick is a total bad ass and her book makes me want to go into the FBI. It also makes me really feel the need to work on my physical fitness...if the regular Police Training Academy is as bad as my cop says it is, and the Federal Training Academy is as bad as her book reads, I had better get started or I'll never make it. And, I have two years until I even begin to think about Academies.
OMG! THE RADIO JUST SAID BRITNEY WAS PREGNANT...and her husband was proclaimed "Stinkiest Man in Holly wood" because he's 20something years old and has NEVER used deoderant.. Wow. I can't believe I wrote this much about it .
I WISH...
that there was space at the top for 10 of our favorite SGs. After being on this site for so long, I've gotten to read things from so many SG's that it's hard to narrow it down to just five! If I could add five more, I'd add Twwly, NicoleLee, Quinne, Morgan, and Voltaire. All these ladies are super cool as well as true beauties...inside and out.
MY BEST FRIEND...
is currently dating a married man. I mentioned it briefly in a previous entry. They've decided they are boyfriend and girlfriend, are exchanging "I love you's", etc. etc. I know I don't have much room to talk about affairs, what with my history with Mr. Q...but I cannot stand that the way they are acting. I sound so hypocritical....but you all followed my story with Mr. Q...he had me an emotional wreck, and I truly do regret with all my heart the time I let elapse with him even after finding out he had someone at home. I'm just very glad the situation didn't explode in the way it could have, you know? Anyway, my best friend reminds me a lot of me in the way that she is handling this. She wants love so bad that she's searching for it any and everywhere. She wants me to give her my blessing, and wants me to hear all the details of her new relationship...and I just can't. I feel like a horrible friend for being that way, but it upsets me so much. I suppose it is because I've been through it and I know how horribly it messes with your mind and emotions. She said he loves her and they're going to get married. He also lives in another state (they see each other during the week at work only and then he stays some weekends)...how is she going to know for a fact that he has moved out and that he is getting divorced when he lives 500 miles away and so does she? I'm worried that she's going to get her heart broken.
MY JOURNAL ENTRIES...
No matter how nonsensical and random they might be, I can't help but post them, and update them often. They are a catharsis- no matter what they say, it's a relief to get them out of my head. I feel better, even if I'm talking about something that involves no feeling whatsoever. I just hope that you all don't get terribly bored with me and discontinue reading my garbage.
GIRLS...
Is it unfortunate that some of my closest female friends are friendships I've formed here on SG? I have very, very few female friends in my life that I see on a regular basis. I just don't mesh with many of the females around here. I love girlie things, but I also am a tomboy and like to play with rough and tumble things- guns, etc. My career plans and goals and interests kind of isolate me from many of the girls I know. I don't know...sometimes I just don't enjoy female company...is that bad?
THE MILITARY...
I've been kind of contemplating joining a branch of the Reserves or Guard. I have not really seriously sat down and thought about it...in fact, here is the first time I've mentioned it to anyone. I am thinking about it in terms of money for college as well as experience for a (hopefully) federal law enforcement job. I'm terribly afraid that I would get sent over to Iraq, though. That is probably the single biggest reason that I really haven't given it serious thought...was scares the shit out of me. I know I would benefit greatly from the entire experience of being in the military...I would be carrying on family tradition as well as bettering myself, but I don't know if I can get past my fear of war. I'd do the Army or Marines...I doubt anything will come of this thought, so don't get worried, kids. My cop doesn't even know I've thought anything of it, and I know he would support me outwardly but be flipping out inwardly. I love him too much to leave him for a war.
EATING HEALTHY AND WORKING OUT...
have become two of my priorities. I bought my bathing suit- think...the black suit Angelina Jolie wore in Tomb Raider 2 and you've got what mine looks like- minus the hot body at the moment. There is nothing that a small little weight loss (maybe 5 lbs) and some treadmill and elliptical action can't fix, though. Pictures will arrive when I have *the* body.
Love and hugs my darlings! I love my cop!
TODAY...
was such a gorgeous day! Normally, I don't mind going into work during the day and having my evenings off, but today was just excruciating to sit at work. It was bright, sunny, and warm- and sitting behind the old black and white closed circuit TV's all day just didn't cut it. I wanted to go play at the park, run on the track...something...*sigh* On top of everything else, my sweetie was going to go out to the gun range to shoot his gorgeous new Sig Saur 228- which made me green with jealousy...but...he decided to stay home and sleep.
PEOPLE WHO STEAL WHEN I'M ON MY LUNCH BREAK...
piss me off. When I leave and there is NO one even remotely suspicious in my store, I would like for it to stay that way for the 30 minutes I'm gone. But NO...I come back to two locked fitting rooms with empty cologne boxes stuck inside and two girls with backpacks that are known shoplifters walking out into the mall. Did they have the merchandise? You bet your ass...but I couldnt' stop them because I didn't have concrete proof. it sucks.
DAY NUMBER 1 OF PINING AWAY...
just kidding. I love him more than anything, but I'm not that bad...like I said, just wait till about Thursday or so.
MYSPACE.COM...
is just as addictive as SG, but without the beautiful ladies to look at when I can't type anymore. I have only five friends on their so far- people I went to hs. or college with mostly, but I still find it pretty interesting. Are you on myspace and would like to find me? My profile name is Amy.
CANDICE DeLONG...
is a retired FBI agent whose book I am currently reading. This chick is a total bad ass and her book makes me want to go into the FBI. It also makes me really feel the need to work on my physical fitness...if the regular Police Training Academy is as bad as my cop says it is, and the Federal Training Academy is as bad as her book reads, I had better get started or I'll never make it. And, I have two years until I even begin to think about Academies.
OMG! THE RADIO JUST SAID BRITNEY WAS PREGNANT...and her husband was proclaimed "Stinkiest Man in Holly wood" because he's 20something years old and has NEVER used deoderant.. Wow. I can't believe I wrote this much about it .
I WISH...
that there was space at the top for 10 of our favorite SGs. After being on this site for so long, I've gotten to read things from so many SG's that it's hard to narrow it down to just five! If I could add five more, I'd add Twwly, NicoleLee, Quinne, Morgan, and Voltaire. All these ladies are super cool as well as true beauties...inside and out.
MY BEST FRIEND...
is currently dating a married man. I mentioned it briefly in a previous entry. They've decided they are boyfriend and girlfriend, are exchanging "I love you's", etc. etc. I know I don't have much room to talk about affairs, what with my history with Mr. Q...but I cannot stand that the way they are acting. I sound so hypocritical....but you all followed my story with Mr. Q...he had me an emotional wreck, and I truly do regret with all my heart the time I let elapse with him even after finding out he had someone at home. I'm just very glad the situation didn't explode in the way it could have, you know? Anyway, my best friend reminds me a lot of me in the way that she is handling this. She wants love so bad that she's searching for it any and everywhere. She wants me to give her my blessing, and wants me to hear all the details of her new relationship...and I just can't. I feel like a horrible friend for being that way, but it upsets me so much. I suppose it is because I've been through it and I know how horribly it messes with your mind and emotions. She said he loves her and they're going to get married. He also lives in another state (they see each other during the week at work only and then he stays some weekends)...how is she going to know for a fact that he has moved out and that he is getting divorced when he lives 500 miles away and so does she? I'm worried that she's going to get her heart broken.
MY JOURNAL ENTRIES...
No matter how nonsensical and random they might be, I can't help but post them, and update them often. They are a catharsis- no matter what they say, it's a relief to get them out of my head. I feel better, even if I'm talking about something that involves no feeling whatsoever. I just hope that you all don't get terribly bored with me and discontinue reading my garbage.
GIRLS...
Is it unfortunate that some of my closest female friends are friendships I've formed here on SG? I have very, very few female friends in my life that I see on a regular basis. I just don't mesh with many of the females around here. I love girlie things, but I also am a tomboy and like to play with rough and tumble things- guns, etc. My career plans and goals and interests kind of isolate me from many of the girls I know. I don't know...sometimes I just don't enjoy female company...is that bad?
THE MILITARY...
I've been kind of contemplating joining a branch of the Reserves or Guard. I have not really seriously sat down and thought about it...in fact, here is the first time I've mentioned it to anyone. I am thinking about it in terms of money for college as well as experience for a (hopefully) federal law enforcement job. I'm terribly afraid that I would get sent over to Iraq, though. That is probably the single biggest reason that I really haven't given it serious thought...was scares the shit out of me. I know I would benefit greatly from the entire experience of being in the military...I would be carrying on family tradition as well as bettering myself, but I don't know if I can get past my fear of war. I'd do the Army or Marines...I doubt anything will come of this thought, so don't get worried, kids. My cop doesn't even know I've thought anything of it, and I know he would support me outwardly but be flipping out inwardly. I love him too much to leave him for a war.
EATING HEALTHY AND WORKING OUT...
have become two of my priorities. I bought my bathing suit- think...the black suit Angelina Jolie wore in Tomb Raider 2 and you've got what mine looks like- minus the hot body at the moment. There is nothing that a small little weight loss (maybe 5 lbs) and some treadmill and elliptical action can't fix, though.
Pictures will arrive when I have *the* body.
Love and hugs my darlings! I love my cop!
VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
You're spending too much time with this cop ... don't you remember innocent until proven guilty??? LOL
And yes ... the girlfriend and I are still together. It's a rollercoaster ride of good and bad.