Feb. 14th. Yeah this is weeks later. Feh. A year ago on Feb 12th a friend of mine died in a car crash due to distracted driving. She swerved, bounced off a guardrail and right into the front of a delivery truck. Her 12yo daughter was in class. They lived across the hall from my apartment, I always heard them talking, laughing, or her ripping her ex a new one on the phone. She drove me crazy but I miss her. Her daughter lives with her father and his parents now. Miss that kid, she's very smart, handles herself in ways that are better than most adults. I think I'll see again, some day.
A year later, I'm out of sorts about it so I went out to my favorite restaurant on Feb 14th. Yup by myself, because I'm always by myself. I stopped and got my friend her favorite Starbucks because I had to do something for someone that day. She knows the whole story, no oddness.
Saw some other people I know, chatted, had a good time. No one made any fuss or comment that I was alone, I think by now everyone is used to it.