Last week i was find my self looking at some photos and I found a print of a job that I did from 2016 and it was very important for me.
Not because it was my dream or anything. I didn't even think it was possible.
When I saw this pic, I remember many cool things, not only about the work itself, but everything I did at that time.
So I decided to re-publish it on my new instagram account (@docesuicide_). Unfortunately I lost the account I had since 2013 with all my records, follow me again if you can.
When I went to publish the photo, I realized that my name was like "Doce Poulain" and not like "Doce Suicide" which is how i'm called now.
Then I remembered that I only changed my nickname to "Doce Suicide" when I became Official Suicide Girl. Before that my last name was "Poulain".
When I posed to PlayBoy it was 2016, and i was Sg Hopeful. I became SG official in 2017.
It reminded me that it took me a while to become an official SG, and in the meantime, there was not a single day I complained to anyone or felt sad about it.
The opposite, even though I still didn't receive my official Suicide Girl title, I felt like one from the beginning.
It was never a problem for me. I loved my position as Hopeful and I enjoyed every second until I turn pink.
That's because I never felt less than anybody for being a Hopeful. I just felt comfortable, and on my way to turn a Official SG.
And i was.
So I am here sharing with everyone my gratitude to Suicide Girls for open so many doors for me.
I have no doubt that this incredible opportunity of one day having the honor of being featured at Playboy alongside Hugh Hafner (does anyone pinch me again? Haha)
I owe to Suicide Girls who provided me the opportunity to share my art and show me to the world.
Don't you think it was easy. I know that the merit is mine, but I believe that we can never forget who helped us to climb the first steps before everything.
And that is what Suicide Girls did and continues to do for me.
I also want to leave a quick message for the girls who are Hopefuls: Don't think that you are less than any official Suicide Girl, don't worry about these details.
SGs World is so much bigger than that.
Just keep doing your beautiful work with love and dedication, that's what always work for me.
Lots of luck and motivation to everyone.
Thanks for reading this far and i hope you like the photos ♥
@missy @rambo @jacqueline @lemon @penny
