Saw the hot bartender last night. That was about the best part of the night.
I'm in such a fucked up mood today. I feel shitty about everything...my lack of a life, the way I look, my ex's (re-occuring theme, I know), fucking money, the people around me...fucking everything! I feel like I have no skin, just raw nerves, and everytime something brushes past me it hurts or makes me angry. I've been trying to be as positive as possible lately, but somedays it's too fucking hard.
I hate depending on other people for anything. The one thing I feel I need most, the fucking "L" word, I can not give to myself. It makes me feel useless and obtuse. I just want to curl up and give in, like I always did in the past, but I can't do that. That's the bullshit way to go and it fucked me up.
I need to feel the warmth of a woman again.
I'm in such a fucked up mood today. I feel shitty about everything...my lack of a life, the way I look, my ex's (re-occuring theme, I know), fucking money, the people around me...fucking everything! I feel like I have no skin, just raw nerves, and everytime something brushes past me it hurts or makes me angry. I've been trying to be as positive as possible lately, but somedays it's too fucking hard.
I hate depending on other people for anything. The one thing I feel I need most, the fucking "L" word, I can not give to myself. It makes me feel useless and obtuse. I just want to curl up and give in, like I always did in the past, but I can't do that. That's the bullshit way to go and it fucked me up.
I need to feel the warmth of a woman again.