things got very wrong and scary on new years day. the girl i'd been kinda seeing for a few weeks before christmas text me, saying she had something to tell me that she couldn't say face to face. i asked what, having a terrible feeling what it would be, and she replied with the words "I'm pregnant".
i was sat in my friend's bathroom when i read it. i sat there for 10 minutes panicking. it felt like the most unlikely, stupid thing that could ever happen to me. it felt like a soap. i was relating my situation to eastenders and all those other soaps with teenage parent story lines. i was scared of what my parents would do and say.
i went with her to the doctors the next day because i wanted to be kept up to date and i wanted to make sure it was true. because i'd already started to loose my trust in her before this. she didn't like me going but she let me go in with her to see the doctor.
i thought i'd have loads of questions but i didn't. i didn't say anything after "can i come in". i just sat there, and listened. afterwards we left and i headed back to the train station. she wasn't being as arsy with me now but 10 minutes after leaving her, i got a text that she'd meant for someone else. it said that i had forced her to go to the doctors, and i made the doctor give her a pregnancy test and when he told me she was telling the truth i shouted Abortion!
what a load of shit! for a start, how can i MAKE the doctor give her a pregnancy test?! i don't know if she sent me that message intentionally for some reason, or if it was a mistake. she sends other ppls messages to me quite often. anyway, i don't want anything at all to do with her now.
i don't want to forget about the baby, if there is one. i'm not going to ignore my responsibility. i don't know what's going to happen. maybe it's a lie. or maybe it won't happen, or perhaps she'll have the baby and not tell me. i don't know. i don't want to sound horrible but i don't want her to have it. i know there are people who may read this who have children but i'm not ready. i don't have a stable enough job and i don't want children. not yet anyway. and not with someone who is going to lie about me and be living in another country soon (she's here on holiday for a few months).
i just wanted to say all that. i don't know if anyhting more will happen. i have a feeling it can't be quite over yet. i don't think its right for me to stay completely out of everything but she doesn't seem to want me involved. i worried that she'll turn people against me. if anything more happens i might put it in a blog. depends how i feel i suppose. it took me 3 days to feel comfortable writing anything about it here...
i was sat in my friend's bathroom when i read it. i sat there for 10 minutes panicking. it felt like the most unlikely, stupid thing that could ever happen to me. it felt like a soap. i was relating my situation to eastenders and all those other soaps with teenage parent story lines. i was scared of what my parents would do and say.
i went with her to the doctors the next day because i wanted to be kept up to date and i wanted to make sure it was true. because i'd already started to loose my trust in her before this. she didn't like me going but she let me go in with her to see the doctor.
i thought i'd have loads of questions but i didn't. i didn't say anything after "can i come in". i just sat there, and listened. afterwards we left and i headed back to the train station. she wasn't being as arsy with me now but 10 minutes after leaving her, i got a text that she'd meant for someone else. it said that i had forced her to go to the doctors, and i made the doctor give her a pregnancy test and when he told me she was telling the truth i shouted Abortion!
what a load of shit! for a start, how can i MAKE the doctor give her a pregnancy test?! i don't know if she sent me that message intentionally for some reason, or if it was a mistake. she sends other ppls messages to me quite often. anyway, i don't want anything at all to do with her now.
i don't want to forget about the baby, if there is one. i'm not going to ignore my responsibility. i don't know what's going to happen. maybe it's a lie. or maybe it won't happen, or perhaps she'll have the baby and not tell me. i don't know. i don't want to sound horrible but i don't want her to have it. i know there are people who may read this who have children but i'm not ready. i don't have a stable enough job and i don't want children. not yet anyway. and not with someone who is going to lie about me and be living in another country soon (she's here on holiday for a few months).
i just wanted to say all that. i don't know if anyhting more will happen. i have a feeling it can't be quite over yet. i don't think its right for me to stay completely out of everything but she doesn't seem to want me involved. i worried that she'll turn people against me. if anything more happens i might put it in a blog. depends how i feel i suppose. it took me 3 days to feel comfortable writing anything about it here...
i wonder what possessed her to lie like that
have you confronted her? x