Windows to the soul. I always question, especially before I fall asleep (these thoughts usually keep me up at night) who am I? What am I doing with my life? What does my future have in store for me..I know my personality is 110% genuine and me, I just don't feel like the outside, my appearance, really reflects who I am and what I feel on the inside, being in this position sucks, I never feel like I belong to any gender, it's confusing at times, but I've felt like this for as long as I can remember. It's fun to dress up and look "feminine" but do I feel comfortable? No. Not usually. I just don't even know. I'll probably delete this post, but for you who will see and read this, do any of you feel the same as me? Or similar? I just feel so confused, I try not to think about it much because I thought "hey it doesn't really matter it's just appearance" but it takes its toll. (on a weekly basis) I feel like I want to be able to switch between both genders? Ugh. Feels.
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anonymous389292:
lillymaee is spot on - we are all behind you and love you for you. we don't ever doubt how genuine you are and its wonderful to see someone being themselves irregardless of what the world pressures. Your beautiful xx
chucky666:
We're not always born into the nice neat two genders that are pounded into us incessantly. I'm a man, I want to stay a man, but I really don't like masculine. Part of it is who I am, I'm just much more feminine mentally, and part of it is probably the result of being raised in a stupid, hyper masculine community. I'm happy with who I am, but in spite of being outwardly male, I think the feminine side confuses people up sometimes, and also illicits hostility on occasion. For example, I'm never up for the stupid masculine contests that men seem to engage in with each other too often. And if you want to piss someone off, just walk away if they want to fight. In spite of your struggles, you are probably fortunate that you're questioning the gender trap. Some people spend their lives living up to imposed standards, and I feel very sorry for them. And have fun exploring! It's awesome!