djxx101

A lot has happened in my life since I last wrote anything on here. I have officialy retired from bar work. When more than half of the people in the bar were about half my age I figured it was time. My dj service is still in full swing, I'll just not be doing it in bars any more. Besides it was getting difficult tossing...
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Wow, what a wonderful day. I came home from work and logged on to my account only to find out someone had hacked it and wrote some nice things on here. Sigh, I love children. The weird thing is, not only is my password both numeric and letters, it is also in japanese.........

So made it through most of the holidays single. Valentines day is of course coming up, and to make it worse I am djing a wedding that day. Nothing like a wedding to throw the fact you are totally alone in your face. It got a little rocky during the holidays. From sitting home alone all day on Christmas to working the bar new years...
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So the holidays are fast upon us. Not sure about x-mas this year. It seems the older my son gets the more expensive his taste is. Of course ps3 games are a certain smile maker, but hey it's not like they give them away. Might have to go gambling to round up some extra money for him this year. More immediate is turkey day. I'm...
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Today was an all out terrible day. I've been.....not so happy lately and work just seems to make it worse. I am the production manager of a machine shop, and work directly for the owners. I have two bosses, neither of them can agree on anything except no matter what I do or my people do, it is never enough. I run myself ragged daily...
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What is it that makes a man desire that wich was worst for him the most? Why is it I cannot seem to get over something that ended six months ago? It is still so painful to think about, like it hapeened yesterday. I used to be so strong and detatched, now I could cry myself to sleep nightly. Why is that poison so desireable...
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I'm kind of down lately. Been a rough year. Each day I try to find a good reason to get out of bed abd start the day, and lately that has been a difficult thing to do. As I get older, I thought life was supposed to get easier. That has not been the case. I tend to analise everything, a lot, yet it seems...
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So the funeral went well. I got to deliver the eulogy. I was nervous, but it came from my heart, so it went very well. I got a lot of compliments from people there. I tend to be a pretty good orator. Kind of have to be since I am a dj as well. I also figured that once gram was in the ground I'd...
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So life played a very cruel trick on me. I slept like a baby Tuesday night. Every other night since then, I've not slept for more than 3 hours and no more than 20 minutes at a shot. I do not know if it is a general malaise, or the fact that I don't like where my life is going that keeps me from finding...
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Djing at a bar has got to be the worst job ever, sometimes. I never work on Fridays, but got suckered into it last night. It was all older people, which is not really a bad thing, unless you bring 99% modern music, which is what I did. I had to pull some major things out of my ass to keep them happy. Then not...
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My grandmother died Thursday. I hadn't been sleeping well before she passed. I was expectinf the call from my mom. We all knew it was coming, but how prepaired for this kind of thing can you be? That being said, I figured that once I was no longer awaitring the call I would be able to sleep. I djed at the bar Saturday night, which...
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