So, I met a girl back on September 20th. Out at a bar with a buddy, we met up with one of his friends, who was celebrating a birthday with 2 of her friends, both single, she being engaged/married/otherwise taken...
Spend the night, my friend, and these 3 girls. Tims friend, who invited him out, went to school with my Brother in law, so, I had some great common ground to chat with her all night, the birthday girl, who I wasn't attracted to, was unfortunately very attracted to me, and it's quite hard to fend off a drunk birthday girl trying to steal kisses all night. I was attracted to girl #3 though, but, she was very distant, wandering off on her own without warning, in a packed club. Got the feeling she wasn't interested, but, not sure really.
After the club, we hit up a shwarma place across from the club, and met some quite friendly drunk people, much like some of our party, spent the whole time chatting with a lovely guy, whom I've forgotten his name, but, he really enjoyed hugs, so, we all got several. Then, as I'd drove to the bar that night, and the girls had cabbed, I offered to drive them home, which happened to be at girl #3's house.
I drive a Mustang, so, we had 3 pile in the back, and two in the front, most uncomfortable drive ever, I was basically huggin the wheel, where I usually sit damn near in the back seat... Time was in the back with #3 in his lap, and everyone was quite happy all comfy cozy...
Get to the house, we all pile out, and #3 invites us in for a drink, didn't even think, just said yes, so, we get inside, and Tim goes for the Guitar he see's, and starts crooning for us, he's quite good. I felt my chances were damn near zero at this point, so I just went with the night, had some drinks, laughed and joked, continued to deny the birthday girl who firmly placed herself in my lap...
The night drags on, and Tim, who I've discovered is a terrible closer, attempts to 'close' #3, to no avail, then proceeds not 5 minutes later on #1, who's not even single, the birthday girl(#2) is already gone to bed at this time... So, it's kind of akward, and after the failed close, #3 switched sides of the couch from next to Tim, to, next to myself, I'm quite happy about this, and feeling no pain due to drinking, also, can't leave due to drinking... After a while, the party winds down, and #3 states she's going to bed, so, I casually ask if she'd like company, she stops, looks at me for what felt like 30 seconds, but I've no idea, then she says, "No funny stuff, but yes", so, I follow her to her room, and snuggle up close, and fall asleep quite happily spooning with her.
Time is roughly 5:30am at this point...
So, 7:30 am rolls around, and Tim knocks on the door, which wakes us up, he needs to leave as he's got a family thing.... he needs the keys to the car to grab his bag... I tell him where I left them, after basically drawing him a picture as he was less than cognitive... he finally leaves.... we roll back over for sleep.... nearly asleep, still snuggled right up to her.... He knocks agian.... to say goodbye... now we're fully awake. Say our goodbyes, but, stay in bed...
Talked from 8am till 1030 or so, when Birthday girl can be heard violently releaving herself in the washroom in the worst way, so, we get up, get dressed, and rejoin the party. #1 on the couch, #2 in the washroom, #3 and I join the couch.
Talking, chilling, planning days events... #'s 1+2 leave at noon to go to an actual birthday party for #2. So, #3 and I decide food is in order, she invites me to .... brunch??? food... We head out, find a bar, and have some breakfast and beers out on the patio, talking and having a great time. After we're done eating, she says she wants to walk her dog, (Care) Bear, so, we swing by her place and pick up Bear, and head to the dog park, for a nice 3-4 hour walk. Then back to her place watch movies on the bed, and finally round 1130, I decide I should probably head home since I work at 7am, and haven't been home since the previous night.
Next 3 weeks go the same, hang out, hit the dog park, long walks, lots of talking.... Sleep over multiple times. We even went running with my little sister, and her huskies, so, 3 people, 3 dogs, great run, though, unfortunately my sister and I are in much better shape for running. My sister is an ultra marathon runner, and I work at a construction site with freaking thousands of stairs that I'm up and down several times a day, so, I need to greatly reduce my stride to keep pace, and my sister is just happy to be out, running the pups who are having a blast, as dogs do.
Them, After our first official date where I pick her up, take her out, dinner and a movie, all the fun stuff like a typical first date, even though we've been out together several times already... She starts distancing herself, and, then, totally stops returning my texts. I wait a week, don't get any replies, drafted up a letter last night I was going to leave at her place, since I'd assumed she'd blocked my number or something. Was going to have a friend proof read it for me, judge if it's what I actually wanted to say/mean.... Texted he again, just to wish her a good week, and all, and, she responds...
SO, She's still messed up over the ex, and was only looking for something casual, but, wasn't expecting me, and she is all screwed up right now, and has a lot on her plate... Many many words... It's over, at least, for now. :'(
So, I do my best to wish her well, and, needless to say....
I'm all screwed up now. Fell hard for her, a three week relationship, and I'm more broken up over it than some 2 year relationships I've had.
But, being with her, seeing how happy I was for those 3 weeks makes me realise how not happy I was before, and thats also what's crushing me, before I was blissfully ignorant, single, and happy. Now I see I was just blissfully ignorant and single, but merely surviving, not happy. Now, I'm super happy, then, quite sad as I realise I'm happy because something reminds me of her, and, now she's ..... not here... But, it's also made me want to improve myself, and make damn sure I'm actually happy, and not merely surviving, so, The only bad thing is my emotional state, currently, but, when I'm sad, I just decide to stop being sad, and be awesome instead.
Now, I'm that prick singing at the top of his lungs, at the stop light, music cranked, and a goofy smile plastered across the face. That's me!!!! Walking down the street, and smiling to myself, cause, why not, I'm awesome!!!!
So, after a while of no blogs, y'all get this gem. Whahahahahah!!!!! Feelings.... Purged!
Have a great day/night!!!! I'm smiling like a fool, and possibly sleep deprived right now, so you've no excuse not to smile!!!