lost demons.
So I recently stumbled on some old journal entries on my computer. It was only two years ago. But most of the thoughts seems so foreign. It was almost painful to read. I guess because at the time it was a difficult time for me. I was adjusting to Chicago and I was disappointed in the medical school situation. BUt reading it now almost makes me cry. I still haven't gotten out of the "funk" that is my life. I'm still confused day to day as to why I do anything anymore.
I know I need to study and finish medical school. But it's lost it's enjoyment a long time ago. I came across a book by a group of physiciains who collected personal stories or medical school. I was inspired by one of the entries. It was from a now emergency med doctor in the northeast about how he struggled to fit into the system. Instead of fightinh the bureauchratic bullshit, he chose to suffer through it. I felt the same way. I am going to start documenting all my thoughts about medical school and publish a book about how it sucks to be a doctor these days. I wish someone had told me all this before I signed up.
So I recently stumbled on some old journal entries on my computer. It was only two years ago. But most of the thoughts seems so foreign. It was almost painful to read. I guess because at the time it was a difficult time for me. I was adjusting to Chicago and I was disappointed in the medical school situation. BUt reading it now almost makes me cry. I still haven't gotten out of the "funk" that is my life. I'm still confused day to day as to why I do anything anymore.
I know I need to study and finish medical school. But it's lost it's enjoyment a long time ago. I came across a book by a group of physiciains who collected personal stories or medical school. I was inspired by one of the entries. It was from a now emergency med doctor in the northeast about how he struggled to fit into the system. Instead of fightinh the bureauchratic bullshit, he chose to suffer through it. I felt the same way. I am going to start documenting all my thoughts about medical school and publish a book about how it sucks to be a doctor these days. I wish someone had told me all this before I signed up.